I wish I had some E again

[docus]

You know that feeling of longing? Extreme nostalgia, feelings of exhilaration, excitation, happiness. You pop a random smile that won't go away (like a boner), you have a burning desire to pass along your loving feelings to every person you come across... That is the feeling of an E flashback.

And goddamnit, am I grateful to be so lucky to still be experiencing them once in a while.

I raise my glass to you, brain.

[Tunicate]

I've only rolled once in the last 2 years (lets not talk about before that :P)and I know what you're feeling. The urge to stare into people's eyes for no good reason. Loving simple things like water, and laying still. Your mind is just a dull hum, and you think maybe the conditions will be right again....

That's what's good.

[Blunderfail]

im not sure if i know that feeling of longing

is it similar to yearning? because i yearn a lot

[felonious_monk]

I've never done e but it sounds like smoking weed :lsd:

[Tunicate]

I spose it could be qualified as yearning. But the nostalgia is the major part. Looking back on good times you've had with an air of... almost reverence, is something that happens for me a lot. Even if I'm sad that those times have changed- certain friends have moved or just moved on, my life isn't the same in other ways, etc.- I'm happy that I had them in the first place. I lived for the moment, back then. It wasn't always perfect, but it was mostly good.

[Erorr]

lol what drawn out explanations.

Your in the fast lane full of empathy and want to talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk away.

I usually paint on a roll though... or atleast run around town.

My last roll was a gooden though, the sky had a purple tint due to lights alongside the hudson river. The winter had the trees bare and and i watched as the vein like branches wobbled while a light purple auroa morphed around a halo surrounding the moon. Thank god we had to smoke cigarettes outside. It was a treat on so many levels.

Then came the rum :o

[Dionysus]

Fuck E, I want me some acid :mad:

[Erorr]

I've never done e but it sounds like smoking weed :lsd:

I spose it could be qualified as such.

lol wut

[SHH]

Maybe I'm just weird, but I found Es to be very over rated.

[Tunicate]

lol wut

you caught me in editing mode -_- I just barely missed directly responding to Blunder. Read it again.

[docus]

Maybe I'm just weird, but I found Es to be very over rated.

That they are... The feeling of E is in the moment, it's not sustainable. That's the only thing I hate about it.

[Erorr]

That they are... The feeling of E is in the moment, it's not sustainable. That's the only thing I hate about it.

My main problem is the distractions, I can never appreciate the roll or the moment. Only the memory and lingering body ache after its long long gone.

If i had a steady acid connect I'd spit on mdma and bury it for good. :o:o

[FON]

TOMORROW!

[Intoxicated Shaman]

I always have molly powder caps. I haven't rolled in like a month or so, but I needed a break from doing it almost every 2 weeks from August to last month.

[Erorr]

MDMA is a fucking amazing chemical, but sparingly is the best way to go about it. Over use tends to turn sobriety in to quite a numb affair, and you find over time that you can't quite hit those subliminally blissful peaks any more as usage goes on.

After having abruptly quit almost 4 years before, my first 'ecstasy' experience in recent years was New Years 2009. I had hoped that after so long, it might be something more like the old times. It wasn't of course, which was partially the fault of low-dosage (and of course, I'm much bigger now I'm fully grown), but I think the first times will always be the most intense.

I don't even bother with pills now, only pure stuff when it's available, and even that isn't the same experience of bliss and ultimate harmony. Of course such a decline is inevitable, but perhaps it wouldn't have been so abrupt had the usage not been so reckless.

That's not to say the chemical is useless to me. Far from it, it's still the most fun thing around in my book, but it just doesn't have those dizzy, subliminal peaks where you just feel that you've (even if you know it's only temporary) ascended all the problems that the earth has heaped on us all.

If I have one worry, it's that I feel less intense about just about everything these days. I sort of suspect that's just a part of not being a kid any more, but I always wonder what life might be like if I'd not had those experiences.
Still, I can't have any regrets- I don't where I would have ended up otherwise. I think at the end of it all, I owe MDMA a lot for having made it here today.

Do Moar -_-

[iMagiNation]

MDMA is all about barefoot hikes, brah.

[Former_Member]

Do Moar -_-

Doesn't/wouldn't help.
I can still feel ecstasy, but I can't feel bliss.

I might give 200mg, maybe a little more, a shot if an appropriate situation (party) comes up around easter.

[Xlite]

Ahh yes, i feel with you OP.

My last time was with by brother about a month ago.

We started out with smoking a wizard and talking about our future.
Then i stuck my hand down into my left pocket and my brother was like - Wut u got thar man?

It was a bag of sweet old molly.
So i took the cd layin on the table and emptied the bag on it, carefully splitting it into two lines after crushing up the bigger crystals.
I ate my shit, and gave my brother the rest. Bout 27 minutes later my brother was all like - Somethings happening man, and i was like ye damn right. So, i plugged my Infected Mushroom cd into the player and planted my ass in the bed, so did my brother. We closed our eyes and the music raped our ears while we were flying on a cloud.

Best time i ever had with my brother.


Gotta do it again soon, time goes too fast on that shit.

[Tunicate]

^ man, I bonded so much with my cousin when we rolled. We went to our first rave together:s unrelated to the ecstasy, I puked on her shoes :<3:

[PuttinOnTheRitz]

tunucate is a fuckin E-tard

[Mr.Happy]

I've still got, like, 150mg MDMA lying around. I'd forgotten about that. Saving it for a special time, I don't do the stuff much any more.

The first times are the best times. I used to love it, but I've got other drugs of choice now. Not to say I don't enjoy it, but if I was offered a hefty dose of any drug I wanted, MDMA would come, like... sixth.

[FON]

TOMORROW!

Argh I had a couple pills, some MD, speed and alcohol a few nights ago and now I'm coming down like a little bitch. My girlfriend went away for a week and I feel all sad and alone and have actually been reduced to tears a couple times. It's fucking horrible and pathetic...hahahahahahahahaha

Don't take pills kids, just MDMA.

[water bottle]

Meh. I've done some really good MDMA in my time, but I never took to it much. Yeah, it feels great, but I've always just felt kind of stupid on it. I always wanted to just go home and roll around alone in my bed. Believe it or not, people annoy me on E... kinda. Sometimes they're okay, but I generally find them annoying (if they're also on it, I actually like sober people when I'm on E). Plus, I hate anything that has a comedown, even if the comedown off just MDMA isn't really that bad.

I'd take shrooms over E anytime.

[Trousersnake]

...if I was offered a hefty dose of any drug I wanted, MDMA would come, like... sixth.

What would you choose over it?

I'd pick LSD and maybe Cocaine over it...Ketamine and Magic Mushrooms (because I've never had them), definitely a 'gigglely' weed strain...tank of medical grade Nitrous...

Depends on circumstance, what you want to experience, why and when. I could never categorize any drug on rank and not think it was stupid doing so.

[Tunicate]

Yeah, I never did ecstasy often and when I did it was sparingly. The fuzzy feeling was kind of cute, but I never wanted to become severely impaired. Now, I would much rather do something else. To be honest, it's much easier for me to stay sober than to deal with he effects of most drugs. The risks just don't out weigh the rewards, so to speak.

tunucate is a fuckin E-tard

it's called hypoglycemia, look it up.

[Mr.Happy]

What would you choose over it?

I'd pick LSD and maybe Cocaine over it...Ketamine and Magic Mushrooms (because I've never had them), definitely a 'gigglely' weed strain...tank of medical grade Nitrous...

Depends on circumstance, what you want to experience, why and when. I could never categorize any drug on rank and not think it was stupid doing so.

Obviously if someone said "right, you're going to a rave, choose a dose of any drug and you'll have it for free" I'd bump it higher up the list, but I mean if the choice was devoid or context or circumstance.

Ketamine would come first, easily. And methoxetamine, because it's apparently excellent and quite K-ish, and I've never tried it. Some strong opiate like oxy or dilaudid, for curiosity's sake (pharm opes don't come around here). Sativa weed, then acid or 2C-D/P/B. Maybe either, actually. Nitrous is awesome but having combined it with hallucinogens, I find it pretty pointless to take on its own now (nitrous + 2C-E is the most intense, awesome drug experience I've ever had... nitrous on its own used to be fun, now it's just a vague, shitty reminder of how awesome that experience was). It'd depend on my mood but MDMA would definitely be pretty far down the list... not that I don't enjoy it, mind.

[Former_Member]

Try combining 2C-E with MDMA. It has that feeling of mental lost and lack of comprehension of the situation of 2C-E, but the MDMA makes it last alot longer BUT while holding back the associated negativity.
It's just a fun little exploration.

I must say though, I don't know how MDMA can be held in so little esteem by you.

[Mr.Happy]

^ I love 2C-E but I always throw a little MDMA into the mix to regain that happy quality other 2C-X compounds tend to have. Keeps the trip on a good level. I wouldn't say it makes it last longer, though, I re-dose the MD halfway through (if I feel like it) because it runs out.

*shrug* I just did MDMA a lot. I never hammered it, but I took it once a month or so (on average) for a couple of years, it got kinda boring, almost. It's great fun while you're on it, but I find it extremely predictable and samey. I enjoy it, but I'd rather go for something that'll give me more of a new or unique experience... or K, which is just mind-blowing.

[Trousersnake]

Can't get too many specialized drugs here, things like 2C-E I would say would be damn-near impossible.

Sativa is illegal :( Really want to try that, never heard anyone mention it besides other drug-nerds I know.

I think I'd prefer MDA over MDMA also, not that that'd be on many menus either.

[Mr.Happy]

^ to clarify, that's sativa-dominant marijuana, the giggly, clearer-headed stuff you also mentioned, not salvia, which just fucks your brain for five or ten minutes. It's an interesting experience, little more.

Must be hard with drugs in Aus. I wonder how they get into the country at all, it's laced up so tight.

[Former_Member]

Must be hard with drugs in Aus. I wonder how they get into the country at all, it's laced up so tight.

synthetics are probably home-made.

[Trousersnake]

^ to clarify, that's sativa-dominant marijuana, the giggly, clearer-headed stuff you also mentioned, not salvia, which just fucks your brain for five or ten minutes. It's an interesting experience, little more.

Must be hard with drugs in Aus. I wonder how they get into the country at all, it's laced up so tight.

Yeah I'm tired it's 4:45am I meant Salvia.

Drugs get in because of crooked cops, I'm certain of it. Same as anywhere else as far as I am concerned. They know how Coke and Heroin gets into England yet it hasn't stopped...nor slowed I believe.

Drug policy is completely fucked in this country, for example there are States that will give you a fine for marijuana...got caught growing 2 plants? You get a $200 fine I think it is in one or two states, in others you're in shit and potentially seen as a higher level criminal like a supplier or trafficker.

Heroin here comes and goes in waves, according to hospital data...which suggests to me rather purity goes up and down depending on scarcity.

Cocaine is, I hear, becoming more popular here. At the ridiculous price for it you need to be rich to get your hands on it.

LSD is cheap, or at least cheap compared to other drugs and is about on par with prices in the States from what I have read in the past.

The cheapest E pills I have heard about here have been $15, someone told me in London they were like 2 pounds. I doubt many people here would know what 'molly' meant. People trust what they have bought to be what they were told it is...which is total bullshit. But then again I don't trust pill test kits entirely either, the shit may be present, but it could be such a small amount that it may as well not be.

Speed is expensive and god knows where the fuck it comes from, bikers I'd say cooking up the shit. I personally dislike the notion of speed unless it were pharmaceutical grade...even then I wouldn't be too interested.

Anyhow the expensive prices, scarcity and so on just breeds crime as far as I am concerned. Make it so opiates are expensive and robberies go up, stop the supply and pharmacies get targeted or dodgy dealings with doctors occurs.

Even Alcohol and Tobacco are insanely expensive these days. It's a damn shame a majority of drug users here do give substances a bad name.

[iMagiNation]

Mmm...X.