I don't know...

[skyclaw441]

I originally posted something like this in LLR, but people there are retards and didn't help one bit.

Approximately January, I began suffering from a heavy bout of psychosomatic homosexuality. My friends did so many gay jokes against me, even though I was always straight with the occasional bent thought. Even though I testified myself as straight, I didn't get all that excited at gay or lesbian porn (only straight porn with both a dick and a vagina), and I chased after girls.

Then my mind tried to doctrine itself to make me think that I was gay. At first I was horribly repulsed at gay porn, but now I can tolerate it (basically because I told myself to), though it doesn't do my wood much good. Eventually this happened so much that I realized that I'd lost all sexual attraction to women, which really devastated me. Worse, I told myself that my life would be a lie if I were straight (no idea how that happened).

Now, I don't even know what I am, in short. I don't know if I'm gay, straight, or bi. I only get excited by dicks if they're in straight porn, same with tits, and I have no idea why. I wish I could be confident in myself again. If I'd always known that I was gay, I'd be fine with it, but I was always straight. And if I were comfortable and sure of myself either way it wouldn't matter. But now, I don't know what I am.

Some said that it could be a hormonal factor due to my age (15), others said that it was a chemical imbalance that could be linked to my past history of major depression. Others said it was a phase. Truth is, I don't know, and I'd like to find out. But all I know is that now that I purposely tore down my adversities to homosexual pornography and such, there's no hope of ever being confidently straight again (which is the whole problem, because this is what I always was, and this scares me, as it's not me).

[---Beany---]

Do you have a girlfriend?
I wonder if you were with a girl and she had her hands down your pants, you'd have these kinds of thoughts at all.

Do you want to be straight or gay?

If you want to be straight, try sticking to lesbian porn, or porn altogether.

[Mirana]

I didn't get all that excited at gay or lesbian porn (only straight porn with both a dick and a vagina)

I lol'd

[abusername]

I originally posted something like this in LLR, but people there are retards and didn't help one bit.

Approximately January, I began suffering from a heavy bout of psychosomatic homosexuality. My friends did so many gay jokes against me, even though I was always straight with the occasional bent thought. Even though I testified myself as straight, I didn't get all that excited at gay or lesbian porn (only straight porn with both a dick and a vagina), and I chased after girls.

Then my mind tried to doctrine itself to make me think that I was gay. At first I was horribly repulsed at gay porn, but now I can tolerate it (basically because I told myself to), though it doesn't do my wood much good. Eventually this happened so much that I realized that I'd lost all sexual attraction to women, which really devastated me. Worse, I told myself that my life would be a lie if I were straight (no idea how that happened).

Now, I don't even know what I am, in short. I don't know if I'm gay, straight, or bi. I only get excited by dicks if they're in straight porn, same with tits, and I have no idea why. I wish I could be confident in myself again. If I'd always known that I was gay, I'd be fine with it, but I was always straight. And if I were comfortable and sure of myself either way it wouldn't matter. But now, I don't know what I am.

Some said that it could be a hormonal factor due to my age (15), others said that it was a chemical imbalance that could be linked to my past history of major depression. Others said it was a phase. Truth is, I don't know, and I'd like to find out. But all I know is that now that I purposely tore down my adversities to homosexual pornography and such, there's no hope of ever being confidently straight again (which is the whole problem, because this is what I always was, and this scares me, as it's not me).

Dude, Do not be a homosexual.

It has been scientificaly proven that homosexuality is a mental disorder, no disrespect to those people but if you can choose what you want to be, believe me, being in love with a woman is the most amazing thing on the planet, or right up there with the rest of them.

Its very wrong what you are thinking, it will be a chemical imbalance, but it is possible to fuck up your head and turn yourself homosexual, so prettymuch make yourself mentally ill.

Don't turn homosexual dude, you will have people bashing you all your life physically and verbally, you can turn into a queer when your 25 after you've had plenty of women if you still feel the same way. Don't ruin your fucking life just because of some confused feelings you have. Your a fucking man. Men don't fuck other men. Its not natural.

Poontang

Fucking Poontang

www.pussy.org

FUCKING POONTANG BRO, FUCKING POONTANG

DO YOU WANT PUSSY.ORG OR GOATSE.COM ???

I think you know the answer.

[zingalong]

Dude, Do not be a homosexual.

It has been scientificaly proven that homosexuality is a mental disorder, no disrespect to those people but if you can choose what you want to be, believe me, being in love with a woman is the most amazing thing on the planet, or right up there with the rest of them.

Its very wrong what you are thinking, it will be a chemical imbalance, but it is possible to fuck up your head and turn yourself homosexual, so prettymuch make yourself mentally ill.

Don't turn homosexual dude, you will have people bashing you all your life physically and verbally, you can turn into a queer when your 25 after you've had plenty of women if you still feel the same way. Don't ruin your fucking life just because of some confused feelings you have. Your a fucking man. Men don't fuck other men. Its not natural.

Poontang

Fucking Poontang

www.pussy.org

FUCKING POONTANG BRO, FUCKING POONTANG

DO YOU WANT PUSSY.ORG OR GOATSE.COM ???

I think you know the answer.

Everything this guy said is bullshit EXCEPT: Don't be a homosexual!!!!

[---Beany---]

Everything this guy said is bullshit EXCEPT: Don't be a homosexual!!!!

He made quite a few decent points regarding poontang I thought.

[moby_dick]

He made quite a few decent points regarding poontang I thought.

lol that's true... He presented his arguments cogently. :p

OP, just chillax and do what you want: if you fall for a girl, get with her; if you fall for a boy, get with him; you feel asexual, get with no-one. Analyse everything less. Bisexuality is nothing to be ashamed of, and homosexuality is not a disorder. Just go with what feel: there's no need to put yourself in a specific box ASAP.

[Euliyae]

You're only 15, unless you get in a terrible accident, you have the rest of your life to learn about your sexuality. Maybe you'll be straight, maybe you'll be gay or maybe somewhere in between. Take some time and don't stress.

[never]

I originally posted something like this in LLR, but people there are retards and didn't help one bit.

Approximately January, I began suffering from a heavy bout of psychosomatic homosexuality. My friends did so many gay jokes against me, even though I was always straight with the occasional bent thought. Even though I testified myself as straight, I didn't get all that excited at gay or lesbian porn (only straight porn with both a dick and a vagina), and I chased after girls.

Then my mind tried to doctrine itself to make me think that I was gay. At first I was horribly repulsed at gay porn, but now I can tolerate it (basically because I told myself to), though it doesn't do my wood much good. Eventually this happened so much that I realized that I'd lost all sexual attraction to women, which really devastated me. Worse, I told myself that my life would be a lie if I were straight (no idea how that happened).

Now, I don't even know what I am, in short. I don't know if I'm gay, straight, or bi. I only get excited by dicks if they're in straight porn, same with tits, and I have no idea why. I wish I could be confident in myself again. If I'd always known that I was gay, I'd be fine with it, but I was always straight. And if I were comfortable and sure of myself either way it wouldn't matter. But now, I don't know what I am.

Some said that it could be a hormonal factor due to my age (15), others said that it was a chemical imbalance that could be linked to my past history of major depression. Others said it was a phase. Truth is, I don't know, and I'd like to find out. But all I know is that now that I purposely tore down my adversities to homosexual pornography and such, there's no hope of ever being confidently straight again (which is the whole problem, because this is what I always was, and this scares me, as it's not me).

Disregard the peanut gallery. Sexual ambiguity is quite common at your age, but have you had sex with a woman? It's entirely possibly you're gay but it sounds that you just haven't had any encounters with women so you have no point of reference. Regardless of that, this is very common for your age group, don't let other people put you down.

[Yggdrasil]

Dude, Do not be a homosexual.

It has been scientificaly proven that homosexuality is a mental disorder, no disrespect to those people but if you can choose what you want to be, believe me, being in love with a woman is the most amazing thing on the planet, or right up there with the rest of them.

Its very wrong what you are thinking, it will be a chemical imbalance, but it is possible to fuck up your head and turn yourself homosexual, so prettymuch make yourself mentally ill.

Don't turn homosexual dude, you will have people bashing you all your life physically and verbally, you can turn into a queer when your 25 after you've had plenty of women if you still feel the same way. Don't ruin your fucking life just because of some confused feelings you have. Your a fucking man. Men don't fuck other men. Its not natural.


Drop. Fucking. DEAD. :mad: Links as to how homosexuality is a mental disorder, please. That, or shut the fuck up.

Anyhow, back on topic. OP, the whole issue ultimately boils down to whether or not you're sexually attracted to men. Are you? As much as I personally may wish for the whole dream-life thing (wife, kids, dogs), I know that can't be so. At the end of the day, I have little/no sexual attraction towards women. I can look at them, say truthfully that they're beautiful, but I'm just not aroused.

Of course, I myself have had several incidents that negate that scenario (involving the opposite sex), but on the whole, what I described above almost always holds true.

I don't quite understand how you could have had a change of heart in regards to sexuality, though. I've never experienced such a thing, though at least in your case, you can pinpoint the root of the problem. I can't in my case.

I think my homosexuality may have something to do with my attraction towards my female cousin as a toddler (apparently, I would try and kiss/touch her). My parents put a stop to that, and that may have instilled in me the idea that female=no no. It may have been the fact that homosexuality was an extreme taboo in my household (my family would shoo me or turn on the tv is some kind of homosexually-themed thing was going on). It may have been due to my deep affection towards my father (in early youth).

I can't honestly say how or why I am as I am, but I can say definitively that I do know what I am: a homosexual. No two ways around it. In your case, no one can offer a definitive answer, save yourself. Look inside you, and ask yourself: "Am I attracted mainly towards men or women?". Of course, this is also considering any and all typed of relationships you've ever had. The key to this self-retrospection is the "mainly" part. There are no absolutes.

Just that simple ;)

[Tokerface]

Dude, Do not be a homosexual.

It has been scientificaly proven that homosexuality is a mental disorder, no disrespect to those people but if you can choose what you want to be, believe me, being in love with a woman is the most amazing thing on the planet, or right up there with the rest of them.

Its very wrong what you are thinking, it will be a chemical imbalance, but it is possible to fuck up your head and turn yourself homosexual, so prettymuch make yourself mentally ill.

Don't turn homosexual dude, you will have people bashing you all your life physically and verbally, you can turn into a queer when your 25 after you've had plenty of women if you still feel the same way. Don't ruin your fucking life just because of some confused feelings you have. Your a fucking man. Men don't fuck other men. Its not natural.

Poontang

Fucking Poontang

www.pussy.org

FUCKING POONTANG BRO, FUCKING POONTANG

DO YOU WANT PUSSY.ORG OR GOATSE.COM ???

I think you know the answer.

Best post ever :thumbsup:

[Equinox]

Dude, Do not be a homosexual.

It has been scientificaly proven that homosexuality is a mental disorder, no disrespect to those people but if you can choose what you want to be, believe me, being in love with a woman is the most amazing thing on the planet, or right up there with the rest of them.

Its very wrong what you are thinking, it will be a chemical imbalance, but it is possible to fuck up your head and turn yourself homosexual, so prettymuch make yourself mentally ill.

Don't turn homosexual dude, you will have people bashing you all your life physically and verbally, you can turn into a queer when your 25 after you've had plenty of women if you still feel the same way. Don't ruin your fucking life just because of some confused feelings you have. Your a fucking man. Men don't fuck other men. Its not natural.

Poontang

Fucking Poontang

www.pussy.org

FUCKING POONTANG BRO, FUCKING POONTANG

DO YOU WANT PUSSY.ORG OR GOATSE.COM ???

I think you know the answer.

Retard or troll.

Anyway, OP, if you're that confused, just don't identify with a specific sexuality. I don't. I'm attracted to whoever I'm attracted to; I watch whatever porn I feel like at the time.

[Ness]

lol homo

[Jamie "fuck constipation" Lee Curtis]

You're fucking 15!!!

At that age, everyone is all fucked up in the head and busy thinking up all sorts of odd and twisted things.

Don't worry about it!

[slm33d.]

I was a bit like that at your age. Dick turned me on a lot but so did woman.. I never thought about dating a man but one night I was offered a BJ by a gay man at a club when i was 19 and thought why not. Dated a few men and got it out of my system even dated a tranny in thailand briefly. Started dating woman while i was working in thailand and vietnam. when i was about 23. And married a cambodian woman 3 years ago and now im 30. Nver think about men now

[Winston_Smith]

You're fucking 15!!!

At that age, everyone is all fucked up in the head and busy thinking up all sorts of odd and twisted things.

Don't worry about it!

This post is full of sense.

Read. Know. Do.