killing
01-22-2009, 02:49 PM
Hey guys, I've been keeping in touch to panthrax through letters. In the most recent one, he asked me to post the following on BLTC. Since that's down, I'm posting it here.
After a few days I will print out this thread and mail it to him, so if you have anything to say to him, put it here. If you have something more private to say to him, catch me on irc. I'm an op in #bltc so I'm there pretty often.
From Panthrax:
BLTC, as most of you probably already know, I've been sentenced to go to prison. For those of you who don't, I was sentenced on poss. of heroin, poss. of cocaine, and possession of oxycodone with intent to distribute charges. I received a 20 serve 5 sentence. Due to the overpopulation of the Georgia prison system, I am likely to parole out after 12-14 months have been served. Although, I could serve 18 months. I have 6 months already served which goes towards my sentence.
I just wanted to let you all know that I am done with the drug life and unfortunately, that includes BLTC. I'll still keep in touch with you guys while I'm in the chain-gang + even while I'm out but as far as returning to BLTC as a moderator or a regular member, I can't. The temptation would be too much for this ex-junkie to handle. I've had a lot of fun over the past 9 (almost 10) years of being a drug addict, don't get me wrong. I've met a lot of really cool people and have even made a few friends along the way. BLTC itself has even produced some good friends of mine that I've gotten to know outside of this message board and IRC channels. But all of the negative aspects of drug abuse has proven to be more than I'm willing to deal with any longer. The time I've spent here really allowed me to re-evaluate my priorities in life. Being sober this long has allowed me to see the world in a new perspective.
I want a good education, a career, a home, and a family one day. My drugs of choice would not allow such things. I can honestly say that cocaine and heroin were the tools I used to damn near ruin my life. Meta, you were right all along. I should've left it alone and especially left the needle alone. I lost my car, my house, a lot of personal belongings to pawn shops, and now my freedom. I foolishly went against the advise of others and became a full blown junkie who was spiraling out of control. I lost basically everything and almost my life on more than one occasion.
What I'm trying to say is, let me be an example of how drugs can sneak up and kick the shit out of you. I thought I could keep it under control. And I did, for a long time. But eventually, drugs became the #1 in my life.
Those of you who have never been there won't understand (or possibly even agree) with a word I'm saying. But that's okay. I hope none of you ever have to find out the hard way.
Haha, I bet none of you ever thought ol' uncle Panny would be preachin' this bullshit. I know I didn't.
Well, all of you be good. If you're gonna continue to get thigh, first learn to appreciate the power of the drugs you're using and the nature of man before you jump head first into it.
BLTC, I've learned a lot since my arrival here in 2002. I'll never forget it. It's been real...
- Panthrax
After a few days I will print out this thread and mail it to him, so if you have anything to say to him, put it here. If you have something more private to say to him, catch me on irc. I'm an op in #bltc so I'm there pretty often.
From Panthrax:
BLTC, as most of you probably already know, I've been sentenced to go to prison. For those of you who don't, I was sentenced on poss. of heroin, poss. of cocaine, and possession of oxycodone with intent to distribute charges. I received a 20 serve 5 sentence. Due to the overpopulation of the Georgia prison system, I am likely to parole out after 12-14 months have been served. Although, I could serve 18 months. I have 6 months already served which goes towards my sentence.
I just wanted to let you all know that I am done with the drug life and unfortunately, that includes BLTC. I'll still keep in touch with you guys while I'm in the chain-gang + even while I'm out but as far as returning to BLTC as a moderator or a regular member, I can't. The temptation would be too much for this ex-junkie to handle. I've had a lot of fun over the past 9 (almost 10) years of being a drug addict, don't get me wrong. I've met a lot of really cool people and have even made a few friends along the way. BLTC itself has even produced some good friends of mine that I've gotten to know outside of this message board and IRC channels. But all of the negative aspects of drug abuse has proven to be more than I'm willing to deal with any longer. The time I've spent here really allowed me to re-evaluate my priorities in life. Being sober this long has allowed me to see the world in a new perspective.
I want a good education, a career, a home, and a family one day. My drugs of choice would not allow such things. I can honestly say that cocaine and heroin were the tools I used to damn near ruin my life. Meta, you were right all along. I should've left it alone and especially left the needle alone. I lost my car, my house, a lot of personal belongings to pawn shops, and now my freedom. I foolishly went against the advise of others and became a full blown junkie who was spiraling out of control. I lost basically everything and almost my life on more than one occasion.
What I'm trying to say is, let me be an example of how drugs can sneak up and kick the shit out of you. I thought I could keep it under control. And I did, for a long time. But eventually, drugs became the #1 in my life.
Those of you who have never been there won't understand (or possibly even agree) with a word I'm saying. But that's okay. I hope none of you ever have to find out the hard way.
Haha, I bet none of you ever thought ol' uncle Panny would be preachin' this bullshit. I know I didn't.
Well, all of you be good. If you're gonna continue to get thigh, first learn to appreciate the power of the drugs you're using and the nature of man before you jump head first into it.
BLTC, I've learned a lot since my arrival here in 2002. I'll never forget it. It's been real...
- Panthrax