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06-12-2009, 11:38 PM
I want to first write a disclaimer, before I post this and go watch a movie and eat dinner.
I am in no way encouraging people to mess with their breathing patterns. Depending on how tense you are, you could cause yourself damage or perhaps even a heart attack or something. The way society has become, I am sure they will do it to most people anyways. What I'm talking about is something that can never be understood intellectually, only physically experienced.
The body sucks. Let's admit it. It gets diseases, dies, gets sick, and the best we can do for it is to keep causing ourselves physical pain at the weight bench in order to make the muscles more resistant to pain - the pain that is life. I heard a workout-obsessed woman at work today once again going on and on about how much protein something had, and simply shook my head in disappointment. Yeah I workout too, but seriously, there's so much more we're capable of that I see being obsessed with big muscles as just another distraction from real inner peace. This body is a stupid piece of shit that is going to die, and the sooner we admit it, the better off we are at seeing life for what it is.
Over time though, all this pain causes so much tensions and what I will simply call "mucky karma" that is, a general annoyance in one's attitude due to the sum of all actions their body has recorded in a given (and possibly past) life. I don't even mean the outer parts, I mean the inner parts we can't even see. Joint pain. Vitamin deficiency. Too much food in the stomach. But most importantly, shortness of breath due to living in a world where breathing correctly is painfully ignored.
I don't want to make this a long post, so I'm going to keep it brief (also because I wanna go watch this movie "Get Smart" it looks funny. Exhaling is good, laughter is good for you :))
Pranayama, is loosely defined as breath control. Maybe some people remember me from totse posting about it zillions of times, but I just cant stfu now, because I will have lived in vain if I do not continue to spread what I have learned. It's hard realizing things like this and then being part of the crowd, you will NEVER find as much interest in stupid things anymore. Your whole direction in life will change, and if you don't speak your mouth out, people will think you're psycho and are hiding something, maybe bad, maybe you hate them, etc. Maybe you just dont want them to stone you to death when you talk about something that would flip their mind completely. So, here totse, is my gift born from my repression.
The most amazing day of my life was a day after I timed my breathing patterns to an outside sound, for an ENTIRE night. A good 6 or 7 hours at least. On this day, I woke up from years and years of...what I believed was... my identity. Please realize every word I say right now will absolutely FAIL to describe what such things will do to you, besides this: I will never again doubt that there are psychics, mystics, that people can leave their bodies, or that this universe isn't infinite in size, ever again.
Everything changed after that. I didnt know what I was doing, I just was released from the hospital (I ate too much food at once, and they had to literally cut open my ass so I could shit again, it hurt, it sucked, moving on) and I was getting in touch with deep breathing, being away from work and all. I just had this sudden notion to watch it all the time, so when I was going to sleep near someone I know, I decided to use their breathing pattern, as a timer, which I know sounds completely fucking psychotic and weird, but just hear me out.
If you ever really wanna get into meditation and yoga, cleansing, healing, WHATEVER you want to call it, it takes real dedication and focus, and Im sure you can do an hour a day and that will be very good, but KEEP IT UP everyday, make it the most important goddamn thing in your life. I know I post a lot of bullshit here on totse but you must realize in the back of my mind, this is going to be, I know it, the most IMPORTANT thing I live for.
On that day many things happened. I could say it and no one would believe me, but the one thing I want to point out is how I felt other's emotions VERY, VERY strongly at work, and the whole world looked like a nightmare. Painted faces, repressed emotions, Pain, pain, PAIN. SO MUCH PAIN you have no idea what opening yourself can actually make you see, it's literally indescribable. I immediately realized I had never seen people for who they were because I simply was unaware, and bounded by my own "mucky karma" which in one night, I seemed to have erased a lot of (a lot of it is back btw, which leads me to keep saying that this IS going to have to be important in my life, or I will die in vain. Realizations are harder than gold, and even harder to deal with when everything around you seems to misunderstand). The mind was gone, and I was cleaned out, I couldnt even feel negative at all, or feel bound by a personality. Everything was just openness, and I actually for once in my life felt real silence and compassion, towards EVERYONE.
I'm going to cut it short now. I think one day Ill write a better article and post it all over the net (before aliens kill me or something! Im sure SOMEONE out there wants people to just IGNORE this shit).
You don't need to be at an ashram to be into this. You dont need to go to the himalayas or cut your dick off or any nonsense like a lot of people think. Also, I think MANY "spiritual" people are unaware of using a beat, a timed rhythmic beat to become aware of the breath. I say this because the mind is SO powerful these days, we have literally been trained to NOT concentrate. Trying this without the beat, most of us will probably immediately forget, get caught up in thinking (and dreams) and be discouraged or think this has no real benefit. See, the human mind is so strong that it's literally thinking it's own thoughts are more important than correct breathing. Our whole society is obsessed with thoughts and the mind. You want proof? For all of most people's lives (in America) they will be trained since 5 years old to
1. Sit at a desk
2. Breathe incorrectly and be uncomfortable
3. Think what people teach you to think, constantly think this, that, and the other thing.
Ive come to a crossroads in my life. I need to make pranayama a priority over EVERYTHING, at LEAST an hour a day and a lot more on the weekends (I honestly need to transition into being that "open" again before I go back to work, it can be so psychologically fucked up that its actually scary to release so many inner demons all at once, I guess you could say.
We are in a VERY ignorant state right now and the war on drugs, and religious brainwashing are two of the greatest monsters to plague mankind, and both are born out of the MIND. People who take mushrooms or drink ayahuasca tea, or smoke salvia divinorum, or do acid, etc, I think, are fucked for life as far as social interaction goes, in mainstream society. You cant just see a deeper aspect of life then go back to being like everyone and thats exactly what Im trying to say here. SO anyways to cut it short I want to say this, and I hope others get this message and do something for themselves.
Oh and one more warning.
It can be VERY DANGEROUS to breathe deeply incorrectly. Intent guides the breath, and we have a lot of negativity so if you ARE going to do this, do it with the UTMOST caution and listen to every tension in your body, you will be going so deep I cannot explain, I do not even think I have gone as deep as one can as of yet, but the journey has definitely begun.
So now I'll break this post down to a few main points, and you guys can do what you want with it.
1. This guy, is right: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjbMB5IEUFI
2. What this guy might not have considered is using a sound as a guidance. Kind of like you use music to jog to a beat, it makes things more controlled, and I think he suggest starting slow simply because our minds as so psychotic that he knows we can concentrate for tiddly shit.
3. Repetitive beats are easy to make using a program called fruityloops, Im sure there is a demo version that can be downloaded somewhere. Im also sure you can download some drumming tracks somewhere on the internet.
4. Another program called AUDACITY can be used to loop music, or beats, record, and save as an mp3.
Everyone's computer is different, and so I cant really get into specifics. It's possible to even use a song you already have, Im sure, but you need to REALLY CONCENTRATE for this to work, if you lose yourself to thoughts, just gently find a spot in the rhythm to breathe to. If the breath is too constricted, loosen it. You are LETTING GO of pain in this practice.
5. When this had a significant life shattering effect on me, Im sure I was laying on my right side, right hand under the cheek and left arm along body, not sure if I used pillows between knees, maybe.
Yeah.
I feel like even this post does this magnificent discovery no justice, but its a start for now, I do think I will write a better article and spread it more...definitely a goal of mine.
A great pain of mine is being truly incapable of explaining this to those I love, and expecting them to not get freaked out by me and think Im a lunatic. My only choice is to keep going, further and further and hope it will be easier to tell others when I get better and more open again, because this is something that needs to live after I die. Mostly my siblings, because it was by PURE CHANCE I got into lucid dreaming and meditation, and by pure CHANCE it just might slip them by, as this world tears them apart. It's extremely easy to go your whole life being fooled, lied to, and misled, in fact it's happening to most people right now. Im realizing that my main priority in life is going to have to be getting skilled at this practice, and then leaving it for others, before I die. I can honestly say that is the only real way I will die happy, and I have a lot of skills and an oppurtunity to make a lot of money, and maybe I will, but see the problem is after something like this happens you can never be interested in anything lesser, like money or having everyone like you, because its just another distraction to keep you ignorant of who you are, at the deepest core, which can only be found by GOING to that depth, and THIS technique is one of the greatest ways to go there.
Enough for now.
I am in no way encouraging people to mess with their breathing patterns. Depending on how tense you are, you could cause yourself damage or perhaps even a heart attack or something. The way society has become, I am sure they will do it to most people anyways. What I'm talking about is something that can never be understood intellectually, only physically experienced.
The body sucks. Let's admit it. It gets diseases, dies, gets sick, and the best we can do for it is to keep causing ourselves physical pain at the weight bench in order to make the muscles more resistant to pain - the pain that is life. I heard a workout-obsessed woman at work today once again going on and on about how much protein something had, and simply shook my head in disappointment. Yeah I workout too, but seriously, there's so much more we're capable of that I see being obsessed with big muscles as just another distraction from real inner peace. This body is a stupid piece of shit that is going to die, and the sooner we admit it, the better off we are at seeing life for what it is.
Over time though, all this pain causes so much tensions and what I will simply call "mucky karma" that is, a general annoyance in one's attitude due to the sum of all actions their body has recorded in a given (and possibly past) life. I don't even mean the outer parts, I mean the inner parts we can't even see. Joint pain. Vitamin deficiency. Too much food in the stomach. But most importantly, shortness of breath due to living in a world where breathing correctly is painfully ignored.
I don't want to make this a long post, so I'm going to keep it brief (also because I wanna go watch this movie "Get Smart" it looks funny. Exhaling is good, laughter is good for you :))
Pranayama, is loosely defined as breath control. Maybe some people remember me from totse posting about it zillions of times, but I just cant stfu now, because I will have lived in vain if I do not continue to spread what I have learned. It's hard realizing things like this and then being part of the crowd, you will NEVER find as much interest in stupid things anymore. Your whole direction in life will change, and if you don't speak your mouth out, people will think you're psycho and are hiding something, maybe bad, maybe you hate them, etc. Maybe you just dont want them to stone you to death when you talk about something that would flip their mind completely. So, here totse, is my gift born from my repression.
The most amazing day of my life was a day after I timed my breathing patterns to an outside sound, for an ENTIRE night. A good 6 or 7 hours at least. On this day, I woke up from years and years of...what I believed was... my identity. Please realize every word I say right now will absolutely FAIL to describe what such things will do to you, besides this: I will never again doubt that there are psychics, mystics, that people can leave their bodies, or that this universe isn't infinite in size, ever again.
Everything changed after that. I didnt know what I was doing, I just was released from the hospital (I ate too much food at once, and they had to literally cut open my ass so I could shit again, it hurt, it sucked, moving on) and I was getting in touch with deep breathing, being away from work and all. I just had this sudden notion to watch it all the time, so when I was going to sleep near someone I know, I decided to use their breathing pattern, as a timer, which I know sounds completely fucking psychotic and weird, but just hear me out.
If you ever really wanna get into meditation and yoga, cleansing, healing, WHATEVER you want to call it, it takes real dedication and focus, and Im sure you can do an hour a day and that will be very good, but KEEP IT UP everyday, make it the most important goddamn thing in your life. I know I post a lot of bullshit here on totse but you must realize in the back of my mind, this is going to be, I know it, the most IMPORTANT thing I live for.
On that day many things happened. I could say it and no one would believe me, but the one thing I want to point out is how I felt other's emotions VERY, VERY strongly at work, and the whole world looked like a nightmare. Painted faces, repressed emotions, Pain, pain, PAIN. SO MUCH PAIN you have no idea what opening yourself can actually make you see, it's literally indescribable. I immediately realized I had never seen people for who they were because I simply was unaware, and bounded by my own "mucky karma" which in one night, I seemed to have erased a lot of (a lot of it is back btw, which leads me to keep saying that this IS going to have to be important in my life, or I will die in vain. Realizations are harder than gold, and even harder to deal with when everything around you seems to misunderstand). The mind was gone, and I was cleaned out, I couldnt even feel negative at all, or feel bound by a personality. Everything was just openness, and I actually for once in my life felt real silence and compassion, towards EVERYONE.
I'm going to cut it short now. I think one day Ill write a better article and post it all over the net (before aliens kill me or something! Im sure SOMEONE out there wants people to just IGNORE this shit).
You don't need to be at an ashram to be into this. You dont need to go to the himalayas or cut your dick off or any nonsense like a lot of people think. Also, I think MANY "spiritual" people are unaware of using a beat, a timed rhythmic beat to become aware of the breath. I say this because the mind is SO powerful these days, we have literally been trained to NOT concentrate. Trying this without the beat, most of us will probably immediately forget, get caught up in thinking (and dreams) and be discouraged or think this has no real benefit. See, the human mind is so strong that it's literally thinking it's own thoughts are more important than correct breathing. Our whole society is obsessed with thoughts and the mind. You want proof? For all of most people's lives (in America) they will be trained since 5 years old to
1. Sit at a desk
2. Breathe incorrectly and be uncomfortable
3. Think what people teach you to think, constantly think this, that, and the other thing.
Ive come to a crossroads in my life. I need to make pranayama a priority over EVERYTHING, at LEAST an hour a day and a lot more on the weekends (I honestly need to transition into being that "open" again before I go back to work, it can be so psychologically fucked up that its actually scary to release so many inner demons all at once, I guess you could say.
We are in a VERY ignorant state right now and the war on drugs, and religious brainwashing are two of the greatest monsters to plague mankind, and both are born out of the MIND. People who take mushrooms or drink ayahuasca tea, or smoke salvia divinorum, or do acid, etc, I think, are fucked for life as far as social interaction goes, in mainstream society. You cant just see a deeper aspect of life then go back to being like everyone and thats exactly what Im trying to say here. SO anyways to cut it short I want to say this, and I hope others get this message and do something for themselves.
Oh and one more warning.
It can be VERY DANGEROUS to breathe deeply incorrectly. Intent guides the breath, and we have a lot of negativity so if you ARE going to do this, do it with the UTMOST caution and listen to every tension in your body, you will be going so deep I cannot explain, I do not even think I have gone as deep as one can as of yet, but the journey has definitely begun.
So now I'll break this post down to a few main points, and you guys can do what you want with it.
1. This guy, is right: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WjbMB5IEUFI
2. What this guy might not have considered is using a sound as a guidance. Kind of like you use music to jog to a beat, it makes things more controlled, and I think he suggest starting slow simply because our minds as so psychotic that he knows we can concentrate for tiddly shit.
3. Repetitive beats are easy to make using a program called fruityloops, Im sure there is a demo version that can be downloaded somewhere. Im also sure you can download some drumming tracks somewhere on the internet.
4. Another program called AUDACITY can be used to loop music, or beats, record, and save as an mp3.
Everyone's computer is different, and so I cant really get into specifics. It's possible to even use a song you already have, Im sure, but you need to REALLY CONCENTRATE for this to work, if you lose yourself to thoughts, just gently find a spot in the rhythm to breathe to. If the breath is too constricted, loosen it. You are LETTING GO of pain in this practice.
5. When this had a significant life shattering effect on me, Im sure I was laying on my right side, right hand under the cheek and left arm along body, not sure if I used pillows between knees, maybe.
Yeah.
I feel like even this post does this magnificent discovery no justice, but its a start for now, I do think I will write a better article and spread it more...definitely a goal of mine.
A great pain of mine is being truly incapable of explaining this to those I love, and expecting them to not get freaked out by me and think Im a lunatic. My only choice is to keep going, further and further and hope it will be easier to tell others when I get better and more open again, because this is something that needs to live after I die. Mostly my siblings, because it was by PURE CHANCE I got into lucid dreaming and meditation, and by pure CHANCE it just might slip them by, as this world tears them apart. It's extremely easy to go your whole life being fooled, lied to, and misled, in fact it's happening to most people right now. Im realizing that my main priority in life is going to have to be getting skilled at this practice, and then leaving it for others, before I die. I can honestly say that is the only real way I will die happy, and I have a lot of skills and an oppurtunity to make a lot of money, and maybe I will, but see the problem is after something like this happens you can never be interested in anything lesser, like money or having everyone like you, because its just another distraction to keep you ignorant of who you are, at the deepest core, which can only be found by GOING to that depth, and THIS technique is one of the greatest ways to go there.
Enough for now.