I really fucking despise everything.

[( o Y o )]

My girlfriend is slowly driving me to the point of insanity. She blames all her unhappiness on me. And I believe it. I care about her and I'm being manipulated whether she is aware of it or not. She can't deal with her stress so I feel like I get to.
Her dad just died, her sisters boyfriend died earlier in the year, she had to get hearing aids, her grandpa died, she had an abusive boyfriend that raped her 2 years ago and put out cigarettes on her. She has a horrible self esteem and thinks she is fat and disgusting. I can't enjoy life anymore. I hate my life and everyone in it. I feel like I have no one to turn to. I can't describe the way I feel. I have been broken up with 3 times and she always threatens to break up with me over random things.
I feel like I want to hurt myself. The only thing stopping me is the thought that no one will care. I'll be another death that won't matter. I'm fucking pathetic. I'm worthless. I want to lash out and hurt someone. I don't even know what to do. I'm just kicked around. Whipped. And I still think I'm fucking wrong. If I bring this up with my girlfriend, I'm told to shut the fuck up and made to feel guilty.
I'm sorry I'm sorry and that makes me feel more guilty. Guilty that I'm ruining her and ruining myself. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M FUCKED. FUCK. FUCK THIS SHIT. If I break up with her she'll kill herself or date another guy to fuck with me. She fucks with me. I have no right to get angry or I'm wrong. I'm seriously fucked...she denies being mentally abusive.

I'm lonely scared depressed and self resenting. I feel like I deserve everything bad in the world to happen to me. And I'm ranting online. To people who don't care. I should die. Fuck my life.

[jad]

I can kind of relate. My girlfriend as all kinds of self esteem issues. She will cry for no reason and act all sad and make me miserable. I had a 3 day weekend and she ruined it by crying all the time and acting like a total basket case. Plus my job sucks and makes me miserable.

I try to focus on the things that make me happy. Lifting weights makes me feel better. Reading a good book often helps.

[The Jitterskull]

My girlfriend is slowly driving me to the point of insanity. She blames all her unhappiness on me. And I believe it. I care about her and I'm being manipulated whether she is aware of it or not. She can't deal with her stress so I feel like I get to.
Her dad just died, her sisters boyfriend died earlier in the year, she had to get hearing aids, her grandpa died, she had an abusive boyfriend that raped her 2 years ago and put out cigarettes on her. She has a horrible self esteem and thinks she is fat and disgusting. I can't enjoy life anymore. I hate my life and everyone in it. I feel like I have no one to turn to. I can't describe the way I feel. I have been broken up with 3 times and she always threatens to break up with me over random things.
I feel like I want to hurt myself. The only thing stopping me is the thought that no one will care. I'll be another death that won't matter. I'm fucking pathetic. I'm worthless. I want to lash out and hurt someone. I don't even know what to do. I'm just kicked around. Whipped. And I still think I'm fucking wrong. If I bring this up with my girlfriend, I'm told to shut the fuck up and made to feel guilty.
I'm sorry I'm sorry and that makes me feel more guilty. Guilty that I'm ruining her and ruining myself. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M FUCKED. FUCK. FUCK THIS SHIT. If I break up with her she'll kill herself or date another guy to fuck with me. She fucks with me. I have no right to get angry or I'm wrong. I'm seriously fucked...she denies being mentally abusive.

I'm lonely scared depressed and self resenting. I feel like I deserve everything bad in the world to happen to me. And I'm ranting online. To people who don't care. I should die. Fuck my life.

She does all those things and you're still with her? I know you're mind isn't clear right now, but do this

1) Is she causing you anguish? A RELATIONSHIP SHOULDN'T. IF IT DOES, ITS NOT A RELATIONSHIP (or rather-- an anti-relationship by society's standards). If so, break up now... you'll be fine.

2) Find out why you're feeling fucked up and fix it. You know what's wrong, now go fix it. When you do, you'll feel like a shining golden bar and the world will be yours.

[slm33d]

Poast pix. This sounds like bullshit to me.

[hotbod]

Eat a gun bitch

[Young Meth]

Wow dude you have a girlfriend and you're in here bitching.

:violin:

[hotbod]

Wow dude you have a girlfriend and you're in here bitching.

:violin:

I got a 7 girl friends:D one for everyday of the week;)

[Rainycity]

if he was her boyfriend, then he cant rape her.

[Chavinist]

My girlfriend is slowly driving me to the point of insanity. She blames all her unhappiness on me. And I believe it. I care about her and I'm being manipulated whether she is aware of it or not. She can't deal with her stress so I feel like I get to.
Her dad just died, her sisters boyfriend died earlier in the year, she had to get hearing aids, her grandpa died, she had an abusive boyfriend that raped her 2 years ago and put out cigarettes on her. She has a horrible self esteem and thinks she is fat and disgusting. I can't enjoy life anymore. I hate my life and everyone in it. I feel like I have no one to turn to. I can't describe the way I feel. I have been broken up with 3 times and she always threatens to break up with me over random things.
I feel like I want to hurt myself. The only thing stopping me is the thought that no one will care. I'll be another death that won't matter. I'm fucking pathetic. I'm worthless. I want to lash out and hurt someone. I don't even know what to do. I'm just kicked around. Whipped. And I still think I'm fucking wrong. If I bring this up with my girlfriend, I'm told to shut the fuck up and made to feel guilty.
I'm sorry I'm sorry and that makes me feel more guilty. Guilty that I'm ruining her and ruining myself. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M FUCKED. FUCK. FUCK THIS SHIT. If I break up with her she'll kill herself or date another guy to fuck with me. She fucks with me. I have no right to get angry or I'm wrong. I'm seriously fucked...she denies being mentally abusive.

I'm lonely scared depressed and self resenting. I feel like I deserve everything bad in the world to happen to me. And I'm ranting online. To people who don't care. I should die. Fuck my life.

A pic would help me see what might be going on in her mind. I'm trained in these matters. I might be able to give you the right words to solve your shit with her forever

[Hammer Tank]

well i don't see how you are bringing her down. if anything she's bringing you down. dump her if it's not that serious.

[mr.blunt]

http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-sf2p/v195/223/117/37617071/n37617071_33090307_165.jpg

The spirit of totse still lives.

[Syphilis]

Fuck, you guys are pussy whipped. :facepalm:

You need to grow some balls, man the fuck up, respect yourself, and all the other generic stuff I seem to have to tell people repeatedly these days.

Start by ditching your bitch. Forget about hurting your feelings. You aren't her to make her feel nice, you're here to get laid.

[KevinLoveIsMyHero]

haha yer girlfriend's fat and disgusting

[random_guy]

Just smoke weed and cheat on her. Maybe even do hard drugs. Shit you sound awful whipped so I'm sure being completely drug dependent wouldn't be frowned on in your situation. Hell what else do you have to live for?

[Venom]

My girlfriend is slowly driving me to the point of insanity. She blames all her unhappiness on me. And I believe it. I care about her and I'm being manipulated whether she is aware of it or not. She can't deal with her stress so I feel like I get to.
Her dad just died, her sisters boyfriend died earlier in the year, she had to get hearing aids, her grandpa died, she had an abusive boyfriend that raped her 2 years ago and put out cigarettes on her. She has a horrible self esteem and thinks she is fat and disgusting. I can't enjoy life anymore. I hate my life and everyone in it. I feel like I have no one to turn to. I can't describe the way I feel. I have been broken up with 3 times and she always threatens to break up with me over random things.
I feel like I want to hurt myself. The only thing stopping me is the thought that no one will care. I'll be another death that won't matter. I'm fucking pathetic. I'm worthless. I want to lash out and hurt someone. I don't even know what to do. I'm just kicked around. Whipped. And I still think I'm fucking wrong. If I bring this up with my girlfriend, I'm told to shut the fuck up and made to feel guilty.
I'm sorry I'm sorry and that makes me feel more guilty. Guilty that I'm ruining her and ruining myself. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I'M FUCKED. FUCK. FUCK THIS SHIT. If I break up with her she'll kill herself or date another guy to fuck with me. She fucks with me. I have no right to get angry or I'm wrong. I'm seriously fucked...she denies being mentally abusive.

I'm lonely scared depressed and self resenting. I feel like I deserve everything bad in the world to happen to me. And I'm ranting online. To people who don't care. I should die. Fuck my life.

Your both broken.

Beyond repair.

[Chavinist]

Fuck, you guys are pussy whipped. :facepalm:

You need to grow some balls, man the fuck up, respect yourself, and all the other generic stuff I seem to have to tell people repeatedly these days.

Start by ditching your bitch. Forget about hurting your feelings. You aren't her to make her feel nice, you're here to get laid.

lmao...haha.

[Chavinist]

You aren't her to make her feel nice, you're here to get laid.

hahahhaahah....quote of the motherfucking century :rofl:

[John Johnson]

Talk with her, if shes mentally abusive and doesn't realize it you shouldn't be with her.

If you do break up with her, even if you don't, keep yourself busy. Don't just stay inside all day living in your own misery. Get outside stay active, start working out, and most importantly of all eat correctly. Do some research and eat foods that will make you feel happy and relaxed, maybe something with a lot of Vitamin B in it like bananas. And remember it will get better with time. Slowly, but surely.

[HippieTrippie]

http://photos-d.ak.fbcdn.net/photos-ak-sf2p/v195/223/117/37617071/n37617071_33090307_165.jpg

The spirit of totse still lives.

This or Murder/Suicide.

[HARDMAN]

I stopped reading at "my girlfriend".

If you can get a girlfriend, your life's not that bad. End of discussion.

[spank_master5000]

if she isnt that important, dump her, if she is, fix it(possible by putting her on anti depressants, if you still feel like shit after you dump her or after you go on anti depressants. if all else fails turn to hard drugs or an hero. life is simple.

[The Jitterskull]

I stopped reading at "my girlfriend".

If you can get a girlfriend, your life's not that bad. End of discussion.

To be honest, anyone can pick up any girlfriend off the street. I assume what you meant was "getting a quality girlfriend" instead of just a GF. Anyone can get one of those...