At a dead fuckin end, like this world

[eBagger]

man I really don't get this place.

I've given up all hope.

Like the dude who posted he needs to go fuck up a dude who beat his girlfriend. This should be acceptable in any decent place, as you don't beat up women. But naw, he has to worry about going to jail while shithead gets a slap on the wrist. Its like no matter in this world criminals and overall bad people have the upper hand. Whats the reasoning, besides a fundamental knowledge of right and wrong, in being a good person these days?

I have a shitty mom raising my son, but from what I've seen from child support, there is no way anything I do will help the court rule in my favor.

Growing up in America, not sure about other places as I haven't been/lived there, seems to destroy any sort of love of life that you have as a child.

All the god damn videogames, television, cars, whatever (minus the internet because of its plethora of information and unlimited potential) all the fucking technology doesn't make me any happier. I just have to work a shitty fucking job or kiss ass and pretend like I want some other job that I'll probably hate equally as much. I don't give a shit if I make an extra 20 or 30 dollars an hour on top of my shitty minimum wage, I don't want to sit behind a desk, I don't want to sell shit or interact with the general public. I'd like to help some niggas in need, homeless people, addicts, animals, etc, but those things don't pay. And I'm not working at a vet. Hurt animals make me upset.

I want to drink the fucking "nectar of life". I want to go on adventures, go sailing, explore the woods, coast, mountains, surf, rock climb.

Yeah that doesn't pay the god damn bills. I'm succeeding in my battle against addiction, but all this being sober and withdrawing has me thinking more clearly than ever, and I also remember more clearly why I started opiates and benzos and pills and everything under the son. To dull, and help make this shit existence more bearable.

So, deal with like everybody else? Grow up? Accept that earth is a giant shitball?

[eBagger]

yeah it was a pretty badly written and not to specific rant. I don't even know how to convey myself..

[Actor]

I think you should buy a lot of food, and go isolate yourself for 3 months. No Tv/radio/Internet/ nothing. Then when you come out, everything will seem fun/cool/interesting.

[ThaTermeneter]

Why can't you save up and buy an old van, and drive to whatever woods or surf spot you think would be cool and go hangout for a few weeks or how ever long you like. Keep the shitty job while you save and then quit and go do your own thing? You aren't spending all your money on drugs are you?

[Pee Vee Proots, M.D.]

Originally Posted by eBagger

Like the dude who posted he needs to go fuck up a dude who beat his girlfriend. This should be acceptable in any decent place, as you don't beat up women.

LOL another mindless drone trying to convince us that he sees the world and it's problems too. You're still a slave to society's programming though, or you wouldn't feel this way.

Also he didn't beat his girlfriend, he punched her and she fell off a porch onto the curb.

Equal rights, equal fights.

[Lollygagger]

How is your son's mother shitty? Prove it and the courts will favor you.

[Blunderstar]

OP, I was exactly where you were about a year ago. It took so much fucking work and energy to finally beat the system, but I don't feel like passing those answers onto some random guy who probably won't even follow them. I'm just saying this so you know that there's a way out, and not to give up, yadda yadda yadda.