Using MDMA with depersonalization disorder

[Tokerface]

Do I risk it? Apparently the main drugs to trigger depersonalization are dissociatives (duh), weed and MDMA.

Tonight I'm going clubbing with a bunch of people and obviously I'm planning to get fucked up. A girl said she recently bought like, 30 caps of mdma and is willing to shout us one each.

When I'm sober I'm constantly in the same detached anxious state. It's pretty awful, and the things which make it REALLY worsen are weed and anxiety. After a good bong session, I still feel really depersonalized the next day.

Do I risk it and just pop the pill? I mean yeah, obviously the drug will exacerbate the symptoms of it a hell of a lot, but will it be worth it? I don't want to feel dissociated to the point where I start to feel suicidal (it's happened after smoking weed). Can you have a bad trip on MDMA?

[&Zenith]

You have no idea what you're even talking about and you diagnosed yourself. Suicide is probably the better option at this point.

[Tokerface]

Originally Posted by &Zenith

You have no idea what you're even talking about and you diagnosed yourself. Suicide is probably the better option at this point.

I didn't actually, I know it for a fact. Like I give a shit what some big nosed fag says..

And don't get bitter because I laughed about you getting banned. Admit it, it was pretty funny.

[&Zenith]

Originally Posted by Tokerface

And don't get bitter because I laughed about you getting banned. Admit it, it was pretty funny.

I guess you do have depersonalization disorder after all.

[iTweaker]

your prob gonna go from depersonalization to ''omg everything is so awsome''.

[kroz]

why is it I've only heard of depersonalization disorder here on zoiklet?

[Thought Riot]

If you couldn't handle weed, you should probably not do mdma.

[NTP]

Well I don't know alot about depersonalization, but it seems like alot of people start out loving weed when they're younger. Then one day they get that sudden panic attack. And most of them actually start to dislike the weed after that because they keep on and keep on getting the panic attacks.

I used to love weed myself, and I also started getting anxiety from it one day. It makes me evaluate myself way to much which could be a good thing but I don't really like it. Oh and i'm going to assume if you get a roll that is heavily cut with speed/meth it will make your symptoms worse than if it was straight MDMA.

Because isn't depersonalization something like, you will be going down the road and you actually view yourself and surroundings in like the 3rd person view, kind of like watching your life on the tv screen? Yeah I get that feeling alot when i'm detoxing from opiates hardcore sometimes. It's like i'll notice things that have been there forever and they seem "different" is the only way I can describe it.

[adrieann]

Originally Posted by &Zenith

You have no idea what you're even talking about and you diagnosed yourself. Suicide is probably the better option at this point.

Shut up dumbass. Depersonalization disorder is a real mental disorder.
I've been diagnosed with it myself, there are periods of time where I feel completely dissociated and life just feels like I'm watching a movie. The thing with me though is that when I'm having an episode of it weed alleviates some of it for a period.

This is obviously several days later, did you do it Toker? How was the roll? I've never done MDMA when I was having an episode and I'm curious to know how it went.

[Erorr]

lol Oh Zenith

[&Zenith]

Originally Posted by adrieann

Shut up dumbass. Depersonalization disorder is a real mental disorder.
I've been diagnosed with it myself, there are periods of time where I feel completely dissociated and life just feels like I'm watching a movie. The thing with me though is that when I'm having an episode of it weed alleviates some of it for a period.

This is obviously several days later, did you do it Toker? How was the roll? I've never done MDMA when I was having an episode and I'm curious to know how it went.

Shut up dumbass. You can't comprehend basic English. I hope you "depersonalize" yourself into a fatal, fiery car crash.

Originally Posted by Erorr

lol Oh Zenith

Yo!

[Erorr]

raw gutta