Ever get the feeling you're not quite doing what you should?

[Dionysus]

^ I agree with the first part. The second part cost you a thanks though

[crazymike]

Eh, let me clarify something: I have no problem w/ jews, and I even support Israel. The Talmud, however, pisses me off. If I could find The Original Copy of this 'holy' book, I would rip out pages to use as bathroom tissue.

[Lanny]

Originally Posted by crazymike

Eh, let me clarify something: I have no problem w/ jews, and I even support Israel. The Talmud, however, pisses me off. If I could find The Original Copy of this 'holy' book, I would rip out pages to use as bathroom tissue.

I think he was talking about the budding up with god part. It was kinda gay.

[TheSexyBeast821]

God is the Truth you are looking for. Embrace Him.

[crazymike]

you are going STRAIGHT TO HELL....err wait I mean, god loves you!

[General Butt.Naked]

Yeh i havent taken pychedelics in literally years. But flailing round on a bathroom floor babbling obscenities into the side of a bath tub, like a frightened deer with eyes like dinner plates and a bloodstream full of cocaine, 5 tabs of acid and, inexplicably, seven grams of wavy cap mushrooms.....certainly gives you a lot of time to think about shit. A scary amount of time, in fact.

[Struwwelpeter]

Nope, I never feel that way. And you can't begin to imagine just how GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD it feels

[Dionysus]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

Nope, I never feel that way. And you can't begin to imagine just how GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD it feels

That. It is the only way to live. Still, if you are still conflicted I still recommend suicide.

[Thetakishi]

Originally Posted by General Butt.Naked

First long rant.

Jumping on the bandwagon here, but that pretty much sums up my feelings of the last few years too.

[dephdiddy]

Originally Posted by General Butt.Naked

Yes. Absolutely.

I can't remember ever feeling like this before I started doing psychedelics and hallucinogens. Although I suppose it could just be changing hormones and brain chemistry from age. But I feel like I pierced some veil, and now no matter how I try to turn, that little pin of light shines in my eyes, unable to be blocked out.

I feel like Im on a different plane of consciousness and perception than most people. I dont necessarily believe that makes me better than most people though...I actually kind of envy not knowing. Its not even any special kind of knowledge or perception...its just being able to see whats already there. It sound really cliche, but I think a lot of people are "asleep". If people acknowledge them at all, most people dont question societal or cultural morality or ideology or actions. It feels like everyone is just staring at a clock, and I and certain other people can see the cogwork inside. It seems people go through life on autopilot. SOmething happened to me though, and suddenly I notice everything wrong with my way of thinking, the prejudices I had, the way people treat each other and their family. The way strangers treat each other. The way that nations control each other, and how governments control and manipulate its citizens. The futility of racism or homophobia. The ridiculousness of malnutrition and starvation on a planet that has more than enough. The fact that Americans use the fact that Citizens of other countries like the Afghanis take up arms against coalition forces as evidence that theyre bad people, and that it justfies their belief that theyre all terrorists...and then when I ask them what they would do if China decded to capture George W. Bush as a war criminal and invade the US, they say that theyd get their guns and fight the chinese any way they could. The idea that by living in a country, you consent to its government invading your privacy and controlling every aspect of your life. Seat belts. The second amendment. The Patriot act. Human rights. Torture. Politicians. Taxes. The biological imperative...do I really want to be controlled by animal impulse and contribute to the problems of the world? All of a sudden I have to question anything and everything, and I see how unfair and fucked up the world is- in an extremely startk and unflattering light...

But yeah I know what you mean. I usually start thinking a lot more at night. I walk around and just get the feeling that I should...GO. Just get on a bus or a pl;ane and go anywhere, everywhere. I feel like Im wasting my life, but then again I feel like Id be wasting my life doing most things. I can't figure out what is WORTH doing. And I know its a really loose definition, but i kin dof feel like if youre not directly changing someones life or making the world a better place, then youre wasting your time.

I want to have real conversations with people and understand what makes them angry or sad... what makes them proud. What they wish for their lives, friends, family, children- the world. I get seriously depressed when I think of the fact that ill never be able to sit down with each person on earth and have a conversation....or see every little town or cool landmark that there is. I just want to experience everything. Anything short of everything just seems trivial and pointless.

I know im good at a few things, but even in high school- it seemed like everyone knew what they wanted to do for the rest of their lives, and made college choices accordingly. I couldnt figure out WHAT I wanted to do, and so as is the story of my life- I just kind of get paralyzed in place.

I will never be an olympian, or a movie star, or cure a disease, or climb mount everest, etc.... and it makes me crazy. It has to be some sort of mental illness.

But to end my rant- yes, sometimes I think its inherent in the human brain to feel like you're special, and meant for greater things...and that youre meant for something else.

I dont know how youre supposed to figure out what youll be happy doing for the rest of your life, much less find a person that you want to spend the REST OF YOUR LIFE with. The chances are that there are hundreds or thousands of people in the world that youd be better suited for, or jobs youre better suited for...but youll never have the chance to meet them. So do people just settle and pretend to be happy?

I dont know. I dont know how people do it.I envy them, though- I really do.

you're a human with humility... a dying breed it seems as the stupid get more confident and the competent get spit on.
I find value in you, and the way you took time to write out your motives as you continue to exist...
you even avoided mentioning the heavy negatives which come from self-realization... it's hard for people like you to deal with the mundane and simple stupidity of the people around you, that you can see right though.
I know you're type man, you're good people.
what's sad is those like us that are easily bored with the mundane, get red-flagged and they try to pump us with drugs at an early age.. shit is fucked up how it works... we see the people breezing along following everything so easily but never stopping to ask the big questions.
people lack heart anymore.

[Rainycity]

ever get the feeling you suck to much to do what you want to do? my life sucks. Except for the bitches.

edit: i dont have bitches.

[Nero]

Disregard these fools. What is "should"? Do you really see life as a film with a properly structured plotline where a task is completed and all questions/problems are neatly and permanently resolved? You're a physical organism that evolved to eat and shit and fuck so your offspring can do it again after you die. Stop complicating things needlessly. You're looking for something that isn't there.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by whore to a chainsaw

Disregard these fools. What is "should"? Do you really see life as a film with a properly structured plotline where a task is completed and all questions/problems are neatly and permanently resolved? You're a physical organism that evolved to eat and shit and fuck so your offspring can do it again after you die. Stop complicating things needlessly. You're looking for something that isn't there.

That is possible, but it explains nothing.

Currently i'm stuck in my shithole apartment. And while its better than an actual shithole, its not better than the world outside.

I've come to the conclusion that i need to travel more, keep my mind occupied and free myself of the constraint that is society.

[Nero]

you need a gf

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by whore to a chainsaw

you need a gf

Fuck that shit, that would mean even more constraints. The exact thing i'm trying to get rid of.

[southernsun]

Originally Posted by Xlite

I do, and it sucks.

Its a feeling i thought would go away once i had kids, but no.
I still find myself walking around outside at night, looking for something.
The answers sometimes lie in a bottle of booze, but the feeling of purpose is only temporarily.

I've tried many things to find answers. I have traveled through europe, i have explored the depths of my mind with drugs, i have searched most philosophic ideas, i have lived in almost all the ways known to man.
But still i feel misplaced.

The idea of meaninglessness is not new to me, as i believe the meaning of life is to give death a purpose and that existence itself is pointless.

But here i am, asking the (great minds of zoklet) for answers.

You was banished from your native planet many eons ago, your soul was transferred from your physical body into the fetus of an unborn human as punishment, to roam this world and live as a slave and live a life without obvious purpose or destination, you feel misplaced and lost, like you're trying to find something, this will be why, you're an alien, son.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by _southernsun

You was banished from your native planet many eons ago, your soul was transferred from your physical body into the fetus of an unborn human as punishment to roam this world and live as a slave, you feel misplaced, this will be why, you're an alien, son.

That actually makes more sense than almost anything else in here, but its just too ridiculous to believe.

[Nero]

There's nothing anybody can ever do that will make them content. No matter where you are, no matter who you're with, no matter what is happening, there's always somewhere else you'd rather be.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by whore to a chainsaw

There's nothing anybody can ever do that will make them content. No matter where you are, no matter who you're with, no matter what is happening, there's always somewhere else you'd rather be.

Nah, i was pretty content before this. Which suggest that being content is quite possible.

[Nero]

This is depression and will end in suicide, even if treated. Enjoy.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by whore to a chainsaw

This is depression and will end in suicide, even if treated. Enjoy.

Fail diagnosis is a failure.

[Vigilante]

This is a feeling your going to experience on and off throughout your life. Sometimes for moments, sometimes for prolonged periods of time... that is until you reach the end of your lifespan and relax at the wonder of your legacy.. if you have one. Or until you die. It's normal though nonetheless. I'd suggest picking up new hobbies.. learning a new language.. design a goal/dream, and then just pursue.. A bussiness idea, and invention, gun collecting, building an interconnected sophisticated tree house system, build a mecha using junkyard scrap, just whatever you want.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by Vigilante

This is a feeling your going to experience on and off throughout your life. Sometimes for moments, sometimes for prolonged periods of time... that is until you reach the end of your lifespan and relax at the wonder of your legacy.. if you have one. Or until you die. It's normal though nonetheless. I'd suggest picking up new hobbies.. learning a new language.. design a goal/dream, and then just pursue.. A bussiness idea, and invention, gun collecting, building an interconnected sophisticated tree house system, build a mecha using junkyard scrap, just whatever you want.

There's quite a few things i want to do, but the lack of money seems to be a recurring problem.

[Vigilante]

Lack of money? Pssh.. Tell me about it man.. Thats why I've dedicated the last 3 or 4 years of my life to making money, and all I've really managed to do is just get by.. comfortably at times, but scratching at the bottom of the barrel at others. My msot recent endeavor has involved getting back into a physically fit form. I'm not unfit now, but I've got down to where I walk/job/run 3 miles everyday.. usually a mile at a time running around the back road loop that's near me.. and eating better/lifting a little.. When you havent done anything like it in a long time, your initial results can be seen pretty fast.. increase in endurance and cardio.. not being out of breath.. Feels good too, just to know that you can do it and your improving yourself.. And suaully that will reflect over into other things, like how you handle relationships with people, work.. or getting a job, and the like.. Motivation is everything.. We all have similar bodies and physical traits, just got put it to it.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by Vigilante

Lack of money? Pssh.. Tell me about it man.. Thats why I've dedicated the last 3 or 4 years of my life to making money, and all I've really managed to do is just get by.. comfortably at times, but scratching at the bottom of the barrel at others. My msot recent endeavor has involved getting back into a physically fit form. I'm not unfit now, but I've got down to where I walk/job/run 3 miles everyday.. usually a mile at a time running around the back road loop that's near me.. and eating better/lifting a little.. When you havent done anything like it in a long time, your initial results can be seen pretty fast.. increase in endurance and cardio.. not being out of breath.. Feels good too, just to know that you can do it and your improving yourself.. And suaully that will reflect over into other things, like how you handle relationships with people, work.. or getting a job, and the like.. Motivation is everything.. We all have similar bodies and physical traits, just got put it to it.

I've had my job for 3 years now, and while i'm not poor i can still not afford to do the things i want to do. I do workout 2 times a week and my job keeps my heart healthy, so thats not really a problem.

I've often considered selling all my possessions and then get the fuck outa here. But i have a debt, and i can't really get anywhere till its paid.

[Obbe]

Just think "Fuck it all" and come play minecraft with me.

[Xlite]

Originally Posted by Obbe

Just think "Fuck it all" and come play minecraft with me.

Yeah, i think ima do just that.. Gets my mind off things.