So we've been on and off for ten years and have this strange connection, we both dream about each other constantly, constantly think of each other at the same times, and completely love each other. She's even said that if she were to get married to someone wealthy and had three kids she wouldn't be able to get me out of my head.
Well I developed a substance abuse problem and although I was making more money which I justified taking the money to use on drugs she considered it stealing because it was our money for future things, which I agree with.
I lied manipulated and put her through hell for two years. I never really tried before to be sober and had depression problems and always blew off getting treatment besides things like the methadone clinic.
She has done the same to me when we were in high school leading me on, lieing to me and such before we finally got together. Than we had a great relationship for several years broke up than got back together had a great relationship for several more years till drugs came into play which I was always a recreational user but I became an addict.
Well she told me she would give me one more chance if I went to an inpatient treatment but before I got in she changed her mind. Well I went to rehab for myself because I figured things were done with her and dealt with all the problems I had and I never spoke to her once while I was there and for several weeks after I got back.
One day I just texted her saying "Hey hows it going", next thing I know it was like old times again we were texting each other 24/7 that day and later she came over and we had sex and she spent the night. The same thing happened the next day and then the next day.
She continued to say that she loves me and that she just doesn't want to be in a relationship right now with anyone and that she does want to be with me but she has trust issues saying that I am going to battle this forever and that I can relapse at anytime even ten years down the road and doesn't know if she can handle that especially if we start a family.
Which is a bunch of **** in my oppinion because in rehab I got to the underlying issues of my drug abuse and was totally contempt with myself when I came out and happy for the frist time and drugs are the last thing on my mind, I've developed the tools I need to stay sober attend NA meetings, and dealt with issues with a psychologist on why I was abusing drugs.
When I take something serious and say I am really going to do it I DO it and I will never use drugs again I don't believe in that whole thing of oh your going to struggle with it because no I solved my problems that I had in rehab and feel no need to use them as a tool to mask negative feelings I had before.
She always is extremely jealous because I went on a few dates before and one was with her old friend which she hasn't talked to in several years and she said since we are both single I can do as I please but if I ever did anything intimitately with her she would never speak to me again. Which I can understand some what since I wouldn't want her dating any of my friends but in all reality this date was just a friendship thing and nothing was even planned.
We are both crazy about each other she even said do other people have these types of connections because I just can't get you out of my head no matter what and I cried every night when you were away and I found out you were in town again and didn't contact me. She's also said it's been like that for ten years that she constantly has dreams about me.
The same applies for me almost every night I dream about her and I constantly am thinking about her and it's been like that since I was 16 and now I am 25. I'm getting older now and I don't want to play games anymore and I really have no interest in any other girls beside physical attraction during our break ups in the past
I've dated several girls and it always ends up the same they start to bore me and than I ask not to see them anymore and they obsessively call me for weeks. The same has happened to her to in previous relationships she's had.
I want her to understand that I am completely done with drugs and have no intention on using them and it isn't going to be a constant struggle for me anymore because the issues were dealt with on why I was using them. I seriously have no desire and have turned them down several times since I've been back.
She just doesn't get it, she thinks I'm going to be a fiend for the rest of my life but I'm not, I am finally happy for once on my own with or without her which I never was before but I would really like her in my life because I think she is the one I would like to have kids with and we get along so great when I am sober and time just flys even after years of being together the flame never dies between us, only this last time when I started abusing drugs but it didn't even die out than we still had so much fun together.
She doesn't do drugs btw so it's not the issue of her wanting to keep living that life style. I've been told that this is the most bizzare and complex relationship anyone has heard of, I also think we may be telepathically dreaming together
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dream_telepathy . I know that isn't proven science but we've had experiences like that before and even had have like telepathic experiences awake with her, I've never told her about the whole telepathy thing, well I've kinda mentioned it to her and she was like yeah it's so weird how sometimes our dreams seem connected or I'll be thinking about you than you'll call or vice versa not just a few times alot of times.
Just looking for some advice on this whole ordeal.
Thank you so much for reading this and if you post anything thank you. Have a good day!
Telepathic Connections Ten Year relationship Trust issues a whole bunch of shit
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