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IF YOU ARE ILLITERATE JUST FUCKING LEAVE(even though you wouldn't be able to read this). Paradox???
Ok so I'm a pretty chill guy. A lot of women trust me and think I'm a good "friend". I'm fine with that. I don't do any pathetic clingy shit to break out of the friend zone either. I can have a good time with a member of the opposite sex and there is no sexual tension or anything, just good wholesome fun.
However more recently some shit has been happening. I can spot a naive college girl in a second just like the lion can spot the weak and sick gazelle. And just like the lion, I don't close in for the kill. Lions know eating sick animals is bad, just like I know sleeping with girls that will fall in love with me after one date is bad.
I know they are naive, because they carry themselves with such dignity. How they sit up straight at a table, and how they are excited to be on a "real date" just shows in everything they do. They are so proud of all the things they do. They talk about how they are not 21, but are still "mature enough to drink responsibly, just to get a "buzz"", they can tell me point by point how they plan to solve the economic crisis and they can support it with facts from a few websites. They love to talk about saving the environment and can name a few corporations that are exceptionally "unethical". They will talk for hours upon what they think life is about, why they feel the music they listen to makes them unique, and how independent they are even though mommy and daddy back home pay for everything. They will tell you "crazy" stories about how they once went into a building they weren't supposed to go into, and how they "almost were caught" and how it was so "crazy and intense". I listen, I smile, I make eye contact, I make them feel important, and I seem genuinely interested, but in reality I am in a different place entirely.
I'm old. I feel jaded and unimpressed with life. I feel like I have seen a good amount of things, and have heard just about everything else. That is when I realized, right now, I simply exist. I eat, I study, I hang out, I go to sleep, and I feel nothing when I do it. Beyond my day to day actions which keep me alive, I'm nothing. I now have the urge: TO EAT THE MEAT FROM THE SICK ANIMALS.
If I started including drunk girls, women that trust me, young and impressionable 16-18 year old girls as women that are fair game for banging, the number of women I will end up sleeping with can seriously be in the low millions I've estimated. I know if I do this though, it is morally a in-reprehensible journey that will have irreversible consequences. If I bang a naive college freshmen or a high school chick, my journey to the dark side will be complete.
I need guidance please.
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I started reading your post, but stopped at this paragraph.
I believe this is your problem, whatever it is.
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Ok so I'm a pretty chill guy. A lot of women trust me and think I'm a good "friend". I'm fine with that. I don't do any pathetic clingy shit to break out of the friend zone either. I can have a good time with a member of the opposite sex and there is no sexual tension or anything, just good wholesome fun.
youre gay
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E: no seriously, just do it. more than likely, your problem with the way your life is going at the moment won't be solved by hooking up with these girls, but i don't see why not just do it.
I started reading your post, but stopped at this paragraph.
I believe this is your problem, whatever it is.
youre gay
LMFAO. Ok I actually know where you are coming from. A few women actually thought I was gay because I dress nice (ties, slacks,etc) and I can talk about a variety of subjects with ease and confidence. Also I never slip in those random lame sexual innuendos other lame ass frat guys do. When I hit on a girl I'm real classy about it, they love that shit.
What I mean though is that I feel emotionally void. I love women, but if I don't get with a specific one I don't really care. One is just as good as the other to me. I can always get with another, none of them are special. I don't care about them as people, I don't even care about people as people anymore. I don't know what is wrong with me. So I'm saying since I'm so void, I want to do something evil to see if I'm really still human.
You would have to have sex with a new woman every hour of your life for 100 years.
Your estimation skills are bad.
It wasn't a real estimation obviously. That number is exaggerated. I'm just saying I would bang an insane amount of women. I know I can easily talk girls into threesomes/foursomes.
What does ITT mean? And tell me more about your sister please.
More detail: There is this girl addicted to cocaine, and we are both in a very low place in our lives. We hang out a lot, sometimes we just sit together for hours saying nothing, but we "understand". She ruined her model career cuz of the cocaine, she is very pretty still but her agent or w/e found out about it and they terminated her contract. We sometimes get high together. I know we are both destroying ourselves, but I don't know what else I should do besides fuck innocent helpless women while she watches.
I think you pretty much described yourself. You seem to think you're in some way superior to these girls just because you're more experienced and they're still fairly naive. Fine, don't go out with them. What're you complaining about? There's someone more experienced than you who would be like "ha, this spaz thinks he's got it all worked out" maybe these people have more depth than you think. Not everyone is completely vapid, though I admit a large proportion of people in the age bracket you described are.
Long story short, you are as your username suggests. You won't go to the dark side you moron, there doesn't seem to be anything morally wrong about banging these chicks. You'll be teaching them the harshness of their environment.
I think you pretty much described yourself. You seem to think you're in some way superior to these girls just because you're more experienced and they're still fairly naive. Fine, don't go out with them. What're you complaining about? There's someone more experienced than you who would be like "ha, this spaz thinks he's got it all worked out" maybe these people have more depth than you think. Not everyone is completely vapid, though I admit a large proportion of people in the age bracket you described are.
Long story short, you are as your username suggests. You won't go to the dark side you moron, there doesn't seem to be anything morally wrong about banging these chicks. You'll be teaching them the harshness of their environment.
I like this answer. However, I have the same problem with women my age(21) as well. Any girl in her 20s it seems is some what "fucked up" in some way or another or just immature to the point it's obnoxious.
Thanks for your input. I think I do have a problem thinking I'm better than people.
However more recently some shit has been happening. I can spot a naive college girl in a second just like the lion can spot the weak and sick gazelle. And just like the lion, I don't close in for the kill. Lions know eating sick animals is bad, just like I know sleeping with girls that will fall in love with me after one date is bad.
I'm no Jack Hanna but I am pretty sure lions do target the weak and sick animals because it is an easier kill.
edit: read some of your other comments. you are so full of yourself and a fag.
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I'm no Jack Hanna but I am pretty sure lions do target the weak and sick animals because it is an easier kill.
edit: read some of your other comments. you are so full of yourself and a fag.
I'm not full of myself. I'm completely void. I AM NO LONGER HUMAN. I have ascended to the highest levels of being and I dance among the stars and smile but never answer when you ask me questions.
The full power of ourselves will only be realized when we are no longer enslaved and tied down by the mechanical reproductions of our bloated and dying planet.
EAT THE MEAT OF THE SICK AND DYING! It is the only way to strengthen the gene pool. Devour them! Devour them all!!!!
If you're so empty how can you expect some interesting, lively person to want you? You're imperfect and looking for someone who is perfect. When you find that perfect person, I highly doubt they will want you. You say you can easily spot a weak person, guess what? You're not the only one. We can spot crazy too BTW.
LMFAO. Ok I actually know where you are coming from. A few women actually thought I was gay because I dress nice (ties, slacks,etc) and I can talk about a variety of subjects with ease and confidence. Also I never slip in those random lame sexual innuendos other lame ass frat guys do. When I hit on a girl I'm real classy about it, they love that shit.
What I mean though is that I feel emotionally gay. I love women, but if I don't get with a specific one I don't really care. One is just as good as the other to me. I can always get with another, none of them are special. I don't care about them as people, I don't even care about people as people anymore. I don't know what is wrong with me. So I'm saying since I'm so gay, I want to do something evil to see if I'm really still straight.
You type like a woman so I changed some words to make it better to understand for some people.
Thanks for all the help guys. I think I'm getting the picture. That one thing I posted when I was so fucking high.
Anyways I think I need to do some inner reflection and soul searching before talking to other people.
I get that I'm not perfect, and I understand that I come off as arrogant. It is actually the opposite though. I feel like we are all just worthless animals, we are all exactly the same, but we trick ourselves into believing we are better. We are just a numerous destructive animal like a termite colony since they destroy their surroundings as well. We build nests but the process is just more complicated and we call them "houses". We have mating rituals like birds and other animals but we call it "being social". We talk about how we are smarter than other animals and that makes us better, but lions are smarter than the animals they eat, birds are smarter than the worms they eat, cows are better than the grass they eat and walk on. I don't think we should fool ourselves.
Everything just seems like 1 big joke and sometimes I feel like I'm the only person that gets it. I don't think that makes me better, it just makes me feel alone. I don't care about money. It is green paper that you use to buy shit that doesn't even make you happy. I don't care about PS3, big tvs, and nice cars, but it seems everyone else does.
So I just feel alone and annoyed with people when they talk about things that aren't really accomplishments. Like "today I was promoted at the office" even though they don't understand that the work they do will never love them back, and that it is just a created constraint like "time" or "law". The world can exist without it. I'm not trying to sound crazy like Greyfox, I'm just speaking my mind though.
Time to head off into the woods and eat berries for 5 years until I come to a revelation I guess.
Any more suggestions would be helpful. I like everything everyone posted so far.
Its ironic your username is "idiot" because your one of the smartest people in real life.
I actually picked my username because when I really start acting like myself, people treat me like I have a disease or I'm an idiot.
Just like in this thread people think I'm judging other people and being an asshole when I'm really talking about my inner self. In life whenever I start saying what I'm really thinking people either think I'm playing and say "your so funny, man your such a trip. that's funny shit" or they just think I'm being an idiot or some weird anti social person.
Whenever I say what every wants to hear and I make jokes about the latest celebrity, and talk about fashion or music, then I'm "normal" and I'm "accepted", even though I'm being accepted as someone that isn't me.
So I just feel like an idiot because of this. I don't think anyone is better than anyone, I just feel dumb for not "getting it" and everyone else seems to have all their duckies in order. I'm really good at pretending like everything is cool, but really I'm confused.
I have the same problems. I try hard to not think of myself as better than anyone else because I can't stand narcissists. But the idiocy that surrounds me on a daily basis makes me lose faith in humanity. Realize that you are not alone, and that there are other people who think that modern life is a bad joke as well. You should try to seek those kinds of people out in your life, because they are the only sort of people who will ever understand you, and they're usually more fun anyway. This kind of person is rare, but if there were more of us then we would have a different sort of society altogether. But the good news is that everyday more and more people wake up and realize what a stupid game their life is. Whether you choose to screw naive girls or not is up to you. I don't think that anything is right or wrong, it's just a matter of perspective and consequences. The worst thing that can usually happen is an awkward morning and a bad rash. Also realize that you aren't the first person to have these problems. Being a disaffected youth in search of meaning and a good woman isn't new. There is a zen proverb that says the only zen you find on the top of a mountain is what you bring with you, and by that I mean that the only thing you can find in the wilderness that you can't in your apartment is Dysentery. The solution to your problem is a different kind of person, not none at all. That being said, it might be a good idea to get away from people for a while, get your head together, center yourself, and come back with a fresh perspective.
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I think you are bored. You need to take that next step and find a girl that can actually mentally stimulate you, otherwise its just a flesh grabbing exercise.
LMFAO. Ok I actually know where you are coming from. A few women actually thought I was gay because I dress nice (ties, slacks,etc) and I can talk about a variety of subjects with ease and confidence. Also I never slip in those random lame sexual innuendos other lame ass frat guys do. When I hit on a girl I'm real classy about it, they love that shit.
What I mean though is that I feel emotionally void. I love women, but if I don't get with a specific one I don't really care. One is just as good as the other to me. I can always get with another, none of them are special. I don't care about them as people, I don't even care about people as people anymore. I don't know what is wrong with me. So I'm saying since I'm so void, I want to do something evil to see if I'm really still human.
It might work.
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From what I understand, you're "karma-like" affects banging these girls will have on you.
From my experience, there is no karma. You have to make your own happiness, it won't just come to you for being a good person.
That's why I got into stealing, and other crimes.
It's exciting, it brings INSANE amounts of adrenaline, and best of all, you can profit hugely from it.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you should start stealing and shit, I'm just making a point.
Do what YOU want that makes you happy, whatever that may be... Stealing, drugs, fucking vulnerable girls, or anything else.
Just LIVE man!!! Enjoy yourself, we get one life, don't waste it.
I know exactly what you mean by the day-to-day living... That was me for YEARS. Now I live for 2 things..
1. Stealing and other crimes
2. My dream car, that's pretty much all I expect out of life these days.
Hope I helped.
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I have the same problems. I try hard to not think of myself as better than anyone else because I can't stand narcissists. But the idiocy that surrounds me on a daily basis makes me lose faith in humanity. Realize that you are not alone, and that there are other people who think that modern life is a bad joke as well. You should try to seek those kinds of people out in your life, because they are the only sort of people who will ever understand you, and they're usually more fun anyway. This kind of person is rare, but if there were more of us then we would have a different sort of society altogether. But the good news is that everyday more and more people wake up and realize what a stupid game their life is. Whether you choose to screw naive girls or not is up to you. I don't think that anything is right or wrong, it's just a matter of perspective and consequences. The worst thing that can usually happen is an awkward morning and a bad rash. Also realize that you aren't the first person to have these problems. Being a disaffected youth in search of meaning and a good woman isn't new. There is a zen proverb that says the only zen you find on the top of a mountain is what you bring with you, and by that I mean that the only thing you can find in the wilderness that you can't in your apartment is Dysentery. The solution to your problem is a different kind of person, not none at all. That being said, it might be a good idea to get away from people for a while, get your head together, center yourself, and come back with a fresh perspective.
This made me feel better. Thanks man. I guess Ill just take a break from people and not go into the mountains to do it. I feel better knowing other people actually get how I feel now.
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It might work.
I had to look that up, but I get what you are saying. I think if I didn't have a problem with actually killing people, then I could totally do that or be a serial killer like that guy from American Psycho. I'm being serious btw
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From what I understand, you're "karma-like" affects banging these girls will have on you.
From my experience, there is no karma. You have to make your own happiness, it won't just come to you for being a good person.
That's why I got into stealing, and other crimes.
It's exciting, it brings INSANE amounts of adrenaline, and best of all, you can profit hugely from it.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you should start stealing and shit, I'm just making a point.
Do what YOU want that makes you happy, whatever that may be... Stealing, drugs, fucking vulnerable girls, or anything else.
Just LIVE man!!! Enjoy yourself, we get one life, don't waste it.
I know exactly what you mean by the day-to-day living... That was me for YEARS. Now I live for 2 things..
1. Stealing and other crimes
2. My dream car, that's pretty much all I expect out of life these days.
Hope I helped.
It helped man, but also it is exactly the thing I'm trying to avoid. Just living life without a purpose is partially what annoys me. Sure I can steal and get a nice car, or I can work and still get a nice car, but I don't care because it is just a car. It gets me from point A to point B, for some people it is a source of pride, but for me its just a bunch of moving metal. I admire you for being able to live in the moment, but I just need to know that there is more.
I had to look that up, but I get what you are saying. I think if I didn't have a problem with actually killing people, then I could totally do that or be a serial killer like that guy from American Psycho. I'm being serious btw
Oh, I know you would(You just paradox'd = I'd do it, but not)
But the profile fits so That is why I did it, and yeah American Psycho counts too(both the same). You have/are a narcissist elitist personality.(18/21)
That is why I cannot do murder. That and I lack the physique.
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It helped man, but also it is exactly the thing I'm trying to avoid. Just living life without a purpose is partially what annoys me. Sure I can steal and get a nice car, or I can work and still get a nice car, but I don't care because it is just a car. It gets me from point A to point B, for some people it is a source of pride, but for me its just a bunch of moving metal. I admire you for being able to live in the moment, but I just need to know that there is more.
You've got two choices: pick up a religion or accept that there is no point. I suppose you could find something else instead of religion to fill that void like getting married and having a family or something, but you'll still be lying to yourself. Not that lying to yourself is necessarily bad, if you can't accept having no purpose.
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op just came on here to get zoklet to justify his imoral actshins cus he new subcontiosly every1 wood tell him 2 go 4 it. wich led me to belive that he is a idiot.
becus u c, this idiot here (OP) thinks he is so incredibly smart. just like the girl he described. she thinks shes smart/unique and full of nolege just as he thinks the same thing but in a diffrint way.
Fuck this kid bullshit
(You just paradox'd = I'd do it, but not)
