Jerked to Child-Porn

[Cult Leader]

Okay, so I have made threads about this before, but I really want to resolve this issue now.

In the past I have jerked off to children in suggestive poses. Shit from that fuckin "motherless.com" website.

I feel like a fucking degenerate now.

How can I have meaningful relationships if I have this dirty secret?

I keep imagining being able to honestly telling people about what happened and they accepting me, but it just seems unlikely. The average person would have no sympathy for someone who does something that wrong.

pls help!

[47 47 47]

Everyone has secrets. Nobody knows if you don't tell them. Posting on a public forum doesn't help your case

[brandon]

tell them that they prolly voted aginst prop 8 and that being gay is even more digusting

[Moonflower]

Seriously man, get help!

[King of the world]

If you're a jew like me then you're fine

sure does suck being a gentile, eh? I'd imagine it'd make you want to kill yourself. I'm tempted to flood this page full of sexy kiddy pics so OP feels like even more shit. Maybe when I get a little bit more time, eh?

[Cult Leader]

Originally Posted by 47 47 47

Everyone has secrets. Nobody knows if you don't tell them. Posting on a public forum doesn't help your case

I have an OCD obsession with honesty. I feel like any worthwhile relationship is impossible because if I told them this I would be shunned.

[Butcher]

There is no help for someone like you. I don't mean for a pedo, I mean for someone who accepts morality as dictated by others, for someone who is so weak that they feel guilty about their sexuality, for someone who cares about being accepted by others more than they care about being themselves.

[Name's Taken]

Originally Posted by Cult Leader

I have an OCD obsession with honesty. I feel like any worthwhile relationship is impossible because if I told them this I would be shunned.

A: find someone who's ok with it
B: Stop whining and being a little faggot
C: murder/suicide
D: All of the above

Choose one

[HOLLISTER GUY]

Post links to the CP so we can verify.

[Jojoman]

You could castrate yourself with a razor blade?

[Cult Leader]

Originally Posted by Butcher

There is no help for someone like you. I don't mean for a pedo, I mean for someone who accepts morality as dictated by others, for someone who is so weak that they feel guilty about their sexuality, for someone who cares about being accepted by others more than they care about being themselves.

Yes, but if I were to go around telling people of what I did, then I would be met with at the least, disgust.

I know it sounds stupid, and yeah I guess I am, but my fucking mind is obsessed with the concept of complete 100% and that being the only way to happiness.

Unfortunately I had to go and do this shit and now I will never find it....

[Butcher]

Originally Posted by Cult Leader

Yes, but if I were to go around telling people of what I did, then I would be met with at the least, disgust.

I know it sounds stupid, and yeah I guess I am, but my fucking mind is obsessed with the concept of complete 100% and that being the only way to happiness.

Unfortunately I had to go and do this shit and now I will never find it....

Well that's admirable I suppose. But what do you want us to tell you? I guess you have 3 options:
1. stop caring about honesty
2. stop caring about other peoples opinions
3. find like-minded people you can be honest with

How do you personally feel about it? Are you actually ashamed of your actions, or just afraid of what other people would think?

[King of the world]

Nihilism may interest you.

[Cult Leader]

Originally Posted by Butcher

How do you personally feel about it? Are you actually ashamed of your actions, or just afraid of what other people would think?

I am afraid of what other people would think, and what they would do.

I know that I could just be dishonest and not tell anyone, but then I would be depriving myself of truly living a happy and fullfilling life.

Yeah it probably sounds stupid, but unfortunately this is how my mind thinks.

[King of the world]

I am afraid of what other people would think, and what they would do.

They should be afraid of what you would do to them.

[Obti]

You jerked off to kiddy porn and ur not worried about molesting children? Just that ppl might find out. So you post it on a forum....

[SKUV]

I keep hearing your stories, and every time I think more and more that you're full of shit.

You say you have an OCD obsession with being honest? Bullshit, if you did you would have told all your friends or people you know that you did this, you wouldn't be thinking twice about it.

In the past I have jerked off to children in suggestive poses. Shit from that fuckin "motherless.com" website.

I feel like a fucking degenerate now.

Oh, and thanks dude. You just called about 10% of the people on this forum degenerates.

[Cult Leader]

Originally Posted by SKUV

You say you have an OCD obsession with being honest? Bullshit, if you did you would have told all your friends or people you know that you did this, you wouldn't be thinking twice about it.

Well I have told a number of people IRL.

Yeah I have this OCD obsession, and the fact is i am SCARED to carry out the deads my OCD has commanded for me.

[crazzyass]

Originally Posted by SKUV

Oh, and thanks dude. You just called about 100% of the people on this forum degenerates.

fix'd

[kervin]

Originally Posted by Cult Leader

I have jerked off to children in suggestive poses.
pls help!

<--- judge

lulz

[samguy700]

i think your full of shit, i agree with skuv, you are an idiot, you must have manic depression, or bi-polar, you never take advice or even seem to take any not of anything we tell you, frankly you can fucking deal with it.
telling people is stupid, do it if you want, dont keep coming to us asking us what to do if your not going to take our advice and then come back to revise it with us again before not taking not AGAIN.

[i poop in your cereal]

As long as it doesn't progress beyond semi-innocent pictures there's no harm done.

[Cult Leader]

Originally Posted by i poop in your cereal

As long as it doesn't progress beyond semi-innocent pictures there's no harm done.

But I mean, if I were to still tell people what I have done, they will have a major problem with it.

[samguy700]

Originally Posted by Cult Leader

But I mean, if I were to still tell people what I have done, they will have a major problem with it.

then dont fucking tell them you cunt.

[Cult Leader]

Originally Posted by samguy700

then dont fucking tell them you cunt.

yeah but I donno man... Some part of my brain has this belief in an interconnected reality and my unwillingness to be honest about myself cuts me off from that.

[OnTheFringe]

Maybe you should relish in the thought that you have a strong sense of morality, therefor differentiating yourself from pedos and rapists. Perhaps it was simply a life experience to teach you that your better than those who throw their care to the wind and furiously masturbate to little league baseball tournaments on local public TV stations.

[Echidna]

Nobody likes pedophiles. Nobody is going to accept you if you tell them. How fucking hard is this to understand?

Tell others and face exile, or hold it a secret like the rest of your kind until you find yourself creeping around toys'r'us looking at 7 year olds. At that time, kill yourself.

[Sookie]

I'll admit. "Lolita" kind of turned me on.
But then again, I'm a girl myself... so it doesn't quite have the same implications...

[uncutdiamond]

Why not simply masturbate ferociously in view of children and parents, then the news can tell everyone for you.

[SKUV]

Originally Posted by OnTheFringe

Maybe you should relish in the thought that you have a strong sense of morality, therefor differentiating yourself from pedos and rapists.

Well, at least you got one part right.

Nobody likes pedophiles. Nobody is going to accept you if you tell them. How fucking hard is this to understand?

And you, are you serious? So what your saying is, you've come out to people about your pedophilia, and all of them had bad reactions..... No? What's this? You're not a pedophile and you've never come out to anyone about it? Oh, then I can see where you would get that information.

Pedophile doesn't equal child molester, how fucking hard is this to understand?


Is this going to turn into one of those threads again? 'Cause I find them entertaining.......

[Echidna]

Originally Posted by SKUV

Well, at least you got one part right.



And you, are you serious? So what your saying is, you've come out to people about your pedophilia, and all of them had bad reactions..... No? What's this? You're not a pedophile and you've never come out to anyone about it? Oh, then I can see where you would get that information.

Pedophile doesn't equal child molester, how fucking hard is this to understand?


Is this going to turn into one of those threads again? 'Cause I find them entertaining.......

How can you support a pedophile? Would you tell your family that you support pedophiles?

[SKUV]

Originally Posted by Echidna

How can you support a pedophile? Would you tell your family that you support pedophiles?

By standing up, that offers me plenty of support. I have told my family and friends that I belong to a group of pedophiles, and because I took the time to explain that I'm not some child molester, they accept that. It's only my dad that bitches about it sometimes, but most of those times he's joking.

I can support pedophiles because I understand the difference between a pedophile and some child molester. Although support for me is helping people understand themselves better, because I don't help any pedophiles in real life. It would take a long time for me to trust a pedophile in real life, but I guess that's why my friends and family trust me, because they know me.

[xian]

This almost seems like a non issue to me. Just get over yourself and your overbearing morals and stop jerking it to kiddie porn.

[Echidna]

Originally Posted by SKUV

By standing up, that offers me plenty of support. I have told my family and friends that I belong to a group of pedophiles, and because I took the time to explain that I'm not some child molester, they accept that. It's only my dad that bitches about it sometimes, but most of those times he's joking.

I can support pedophiles because I understand the difference between a pedophile and some child molester. Although support for me is helping people understand themselves better, because I don't help any pedophiles in real life. It would take a long time for me to trust a pedophile in real life, but I guess that's why my friends and family trust me, because they know me.

hudder:

If I ever saw you in person I would beat you within an inch of your life. I'm not tough guy but I'd have a baseball bat. There is no place in the world for pedophiles. You know what happens when an adult acts out on a child? It's called a crime. There is a reason normal people don't fuck children and that's because they're normal.

16 is fine in most countries but still, you are disgusting. I hope you get cancer. The painful kind.

[p6867]

There's a big difference between being attracted to girls around 15-17 and being attracted to elementary school girls. one is something that every straight male has and one is kind of fucked up. At the end of the day, just don't fuck kids.

As my ex girlfriend who is into chicks once put it, "of course we want to fuck 16 year old girls, that's why their's a law"

[Sookie]

Originally Posted by SKUV

By standing up, that offers me plenty of support. I have told my family and friends that I belong to a group of pedophiles, and because I took the time to explain that I'm not some child molester, they accept that. It's only my dad that bitches about it sometimes, but most of those times he's joking.

I can support pedophiles because I understand the difference between a pedophile and some child molester. Although support for me is helping people understand themselves better, because I don't help any pedophiles in real life. It would take a long time for me to trust a pedophile in real life, but I guess that's why my friends and family trust me, because they know me.

This is truly enlightening. I never thought that this... could happen.

Originally Posted by Echidna

hudder:

If I ever saw you in person I would beat you within an inch of your life. I'm not tough guy but I'd have a baseball bat. There is no place in the world for pedophiles. You know what happens when an adult acts out on a child? It's called a crime. There is a reason normal people don't fuck children and that's because they're normal.

That was kind of hot. Keep it up.

[SKUV]

Originally Posted by Echidna

hudder:

If I ever saw you in person I would beat you within an inch of your life. I'm not tough guy but I'd have a baseball bat. There is no place in the world for pedophiles. You know what happens when an adult acts out on a child? It's called a crime. There is a reason normal people don't fuck children and that's because they're normal.

16 is fine in most countries but still, you are disgusting. I hope you get cancer. The painful kind.

understand the difference between a pedophile and some child molester

You can't be serious? Do you still not get the point? Just because being sexually attracted to children makes you a pedophile, that doesn't mean you have to act on it. Unless you believe the Psychologists definition of pedophile, but that's another whole definition than the one I'm using....

And the part I bolded, is that why you think having sex with children is wrong, because it's illegal? Just wondering, because I happen to have a different reason why, which is not entirely related to the law.

Also, I really don't think you would go up to some almost random person that you don't really know and beat them with a baseball bat, as you already said you're not a tough guy.

[Butcher]

Originally Posted by SKUV

Just wondering, because I happen to have a different reason why, which is not entirely related to the law.

Whats that?

[Echidna]

Originally Posted by SKUV

You can't be serious? Do you still not get the point? Just because being sexually attracted to children makes you a pedophile, that doesn't mean you have to act on it. Unless you believe the Psychologists definition of pedophile, but that's another whole definition than the one I'm using....

You are more so capable than a normal person. Just like those that are in jail for murdering someone, but didn't have the mental capacity to stop. That's why they put them in mental institutions, because they are fucked in the head. Most murders are crimes of passion. It was never planned, it was just a heat of the moment situation. Just like you, however you might not commit murder, you may be placed in a situation where you act on it. Weekend at your family's home. Everyone else is asleep but 7 year old niece or nephew. Surely nobody would know, why not just creep up the stairs, prop open the door, and have a peek? I know that got you off, you fucking pedophile.

And the part I bolded, is that why you think having sex with children is wrong, because it's illegal? Just wondering, because I happen to have a different reason why, which is not entirely related to the law.

Children aren't sexually or mentally mature enough to handle sex. When has a girl ever recalled the fun times she had with her pedophile uncle? Never. Unless she was fucked up in the head from it.

Also, I really don't think you would go up to some almost random person that you don't really know and beat them with a baseball bat, as you already said you're not a tough guy.

I lied, I am actually tough and I'm a juicer so I'd blame it on roid rage.

[SKUV]

Originally Posted by Butcher

Whats that?

I'm glad you asked.

It is for multiple reason actually. Let's say I did have sex with some little girl and told her to keep it a secret. As she would get older, she would have a harder time keeping that kind of thing secret. It's not good for anyone to keep those kind of things bottled up inside, it eats away at you and just isn't good for your mental health. She would eventually wonder why she should even keep it secret, or maybe she would see some news story that had some child molester getting arrested for doing what she sees as the same thing. So she would tell someone eventually, I would get arrested, and she would be subject to therapy, a lifetime of shame, and most likely media coverage. All of these things can't be good for your mental health either, being told that you were a victim when some guy said it was best to keep that "special moment" a secret. Then you get a lifetime of mixed emotions and maybe regrets.

Or let's say if I had sex with a little girl, and told her it was okay and everything we did was normal. She would probably brag to her friends, who might be a little jealous or some might be grossed out. Maybe some will be happy for her. None of that matters, because eventually word would spread, and we would end up in a situation similar to the previous: Me getting arrested, and her subjected to therapy, a lifetime of shame, and possibly media coverage. The only difference is she wouldn't be bottling her emotions, but that wouldn't matter because she will still come to think it was wrong and I was a horrible person. Even in both of these scenarios it wouldn't matter if she was completely willing, she would still think I took advantage of her, and it wouldn't do good.

So in short, if you disregard the law and my own pleasure, how could having sex with a little girl benefit her at all compared to not having sex and possibly being a positive influence in her life?

Just like you, however you might not commit murder, you may be placed in a situation where you act on it. Weekend at your family's home. Everyone else is asleep but 7 year old niece or nephew. Surely nobody would know, why not just creep up the stairs, prop open the door, and have a peek? I know that got you off, you fucking pedophile.

Fuck man, you really don't know me. I know what's right and wrong, I know what affects people in positive ways and negative ones. I know how to put others before me. It's not difficult, fuck I worked at a damn elementary school/middle school for a while. It was rare that I would think sexual thoughts about any of the kids there. I had to make sure the bathrooms were clear before I cleaned them, and leave as soon as someone says they are going to enter one. And I followed those rules. I respect people's privacy, and I actually care about children's well being.

But yes, I'm a pedophile, because I'm sexually attracted to prepubescent girls. Just like a heterosexual male is attracted to women. Which btw, I am one of those too, so I'm not an exclusive pedophile. But my point was do all normal heterosexual males think of nothing but sex when they see a hot women and have to act on it? I really hope not.....