why cant i live a normal life.

[refugee]

college, relationships, family, friends, jobs, fucking everything. I just cant get into a fucking routine like everyone. I dropped out of college, cant maintain a relationship, havent talked to any of my immediate family in almost 4 years, I hate the people that hang around my house, and most of all i hate my god damn job, so I break the law and make money illegally instead.

I can't keep this shit up without ending up dead or in prison. Why is it that everyone else seems so content with following the "norm", but i can't stand the thought of a "career"? It's fucked up that I've gotta bullshit my way through the day and make it look like im satisfied with what I'm doing. I hate so much about everything around me, all stemming from my entire life preceding this. I'm sick of being pissed off all the time, and I'm sick of my past following me around, forcing me to live the way I do.

What the fuck guys... does anyone, anyone at all on this lousy bitch understand what im saying? any advice besides molotov everything or huff raid?

im close to selling off all my shit and leaving and just shacking up somewhere nice where no one knows me. just get an easy dead end job in hawaii and just live/surf for the rest of my life.

any takers on moving to hawaii? I never miss rent and just want to enjoy life, for once...

[Death_Merchant]

It depends, what do you consider a worthwhile life? I'm happy with the little things. My job isn't my identity, I learn what I want, live in a way that is within my reach, accept that some things aren't, and may never be within my reach.

Just find a job that you can put up with, that will pay your bills. I don't even know how I feel about my job, other than it's a job. Really, as long as I have a roof over my head and food in my fridge, life is grand. It's nice to own a few nice things, but I could live without them. I like life stress free. Just quit letting the little bullshit things in life bother you. They don't matter at all. Just live for the experience, and you'll never be disappointed.

[Village Idiot]

Hey, at least you've come to the realization that you are unhappy with your lifestyle. Many people who live in filth don't know any better and refuse to change themselves. Give yourself time, you sound like you're rushing things. I don't care how old you are, some people bloom late.

[Struwwelpeter]

Originally Posted by Knikola

Hey, at least you've come to the realization that you are unhappy with your lifestyle. Many people who live in filth don't know any better and refuse to change themselves. Give yourself time, you sound like you're rushing things. I don't care how old you are, some people bloom late.

No, you're wrong. This is the problem here. This American, western, feminized bullshit. People in America and western Europe are brought in to this world and their parents, friends and the media tell them they have to live a certain way or they're a failure. You must go to college, get a job, a car, a house, debt, a wife, children, so on and so forth. People are raised to be narcissists in this part of the world. They are raised to treat their life as if it is a video game or a movie, as if verything must be an act. This is the wrong way to live.

OP like it or not you're going to be unhappy wherever you go so as long as you follow this way of thinking. If you go back to college and get a job, you're going to want more. You're going to want a new house, a car, a raise, etc. You will never be happy with what you have because it is impossible for 99.9999% of people who don't inherit wealth to achieve happily ever after status. Your best bet is to do what you said, get a menial job and just live the rest of your life surfing or doing whatever you want to do. You will be happier living humbly doing what you love than you will otherwise. There is absolutely no point in wasting the majority of your young adult life on college, aspiring for a socioeconomic class that is just as bad as everything below it, or whatever. None of the people that do this are happy, they're all afraid to die because they know they've done jack shit in life, spending most of their time in front of a textbook full of bullshit or the work on their desk, and they know they'll never get those years back. I don't know a single person that isn't like this and I've paid very close attention to this for nearly ten years of my life.

So fuck it, do whatever you want, transcend above this bullshit and you'll be instantly gratified knowing you live correctly. Do not, I repeat, do not fall in to this hope bullshit or this "let's get a plan together and change something!!!" foolishness. Do exactly what you were talking about regarding surfing.

[PooPfish]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

No, you're wrong. This is the problem here. This American, western, feminized bullshit. People in America and western Europe are brought in to this world and their parents, friends and the media tells them they have to live a certain way or they're a failure. They tell them, you must go to college, get a job, a car, a house, debt, a wife, children, blah blah blah. This is bullshit. People are raised to be narcissists in this part of the world. They are raised to treat their life as if it is a video game or a movie, and everything must be an act. This is the wrong way to live.

OP like it or not you're going to be unhappy, a moody little bitch wherever you go. If you go back to college and get a job, you're going to want more. You're going to want a new house, a car, a raise, etc. You will never be happy with what you have because it is impossible for 99.9999% of people who don't inherit wealth to achieve happily ever after status. Your best bet is to do what you said, get a menial job and just live the rest of your life surfing or doing whatever you want to do. There is absolutely no point in wasting the majority of your young adult life on college, aspiring for a socioeconomic class that is just as bad as everything below it, or whatever. None of the people that do this are happy, they're all afraid to die because they know they've done jack shit in life, spending most of their time in front of a textbook full of bullshit or the work on their desk, and they know they'll never get those years back. I don't know a single person that isn't like this and I've paid very close attention to this for nearly ten years of my life.

So fuck it, do whatever you want, transcend above this bullshit and you'll be instantly gratified knowing you live correctly. Do not, I repeat, do not fall in to this hope bullshit or this "let's get a plan together and change something!!!" foolishness. Do exactly what you were talking about regarding surfing.

Great post Jim "Fuck Latinos" Carrey, *Didn't think I would be saying that."

[refugee]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

No, you're wrong. This is the problem here. This American, western, feminized bullshit. People in America and western Europe are brought in to this world and their parents, friends and the media tell them they have to live a certain way or they're a failure. You must go to college, get a job, a car, a house, debt, a wife, children, so on and so forth. People are raised to be narcissists in this part of the world. They are raised to treat their life as if it is a video game or a movie, as if verything must be an act. This is the wrong way to live.

OP like it or not you're going to be unhappy wherever you go so as long as you follow this way of thinking. If you go back to college and get a job, you're going to want more. You're going to want a new house, a car, a raise, etc. You will never be happy with what you have because it is impossible for 99.9999% of people who don't inherit wealth to achieve happily ever after status. Your best bet is to do what you said, get a menial job and just live the rest of your life surfing or doing whatever you want to do. You will be happier living humbly doing what you love than you will otherwise. There is absolutely no point in wasting the majority of your young adult life on college, aspiring for a socioeconomic class that is just as bad as everything below it, or whatever. None of the people that do this are happy, they're all afraid to die because they know they've done jack shit in life, spending most of their time in front of a textbook full of bullshit or the work on their desk, and they know they'll never get those years back. I don't know a single person that isn't like this and I've paid very close attention to this for nearly ten years of my life.

So fuck it, do whatever you want, transcend above this bullshit and you'll be instantly gratified knowing you live correctly. Do not, I repeat, do not fall in to this hope bullshit or this "let's get a plan together and change something!!!" foolishness. Do exactly what you were talking about regarding surfing.

I don't give a fuck what any of these bitches complain about, you're the coolest mother fucker on here. Thanks man, that really helped put some major shit in perspective. And the thing about Americans had me rollin on the ground laughing, because that's how it really is...

Im gonna be on a beach as soon as I get this settlement check, I'm getting just under 14k, anyone in Hawaii want a roommate?

[Struwwelpeter]

Well thank you very much, I appreciate that, I didn't expect that to be well-received, I'm glad we're friends.

Best of luck to you.

[JoePedo]

Originally Posted by refugee

Why is it that everyone else seems so content with following the "norm", but i can't stand the thought of a "career"?

Because you are more rational and mentally healthy than "everyone else."

Originally Posted by refugee

What the fuck guys... does anyone, anyone at all on this lousy bitch understand what im saying? any advice besides molotov everything or huff raid?

Eat LSD. Lots of LSD. When you have eaten enough, your sense of "this isn't right" will coalesce into its counterpart, a sense of what is a right way to live.

When you have that, you can live it. And maybe, just maybe, engage in a little guerilla subversion to monkeyfuck the machine and lead everyone into a brighter light...

[Rainycity]

im just like you execpt i lack a job and i still go to school parttime you no what you should do do sumthing you good at

[refugee]

Originally Posted by ImJoeThePedo

Because you are more rational and mentally healthy than "everyone else."

Eat LSD. Lots of LSD. When you have eaten enough, your sense of "this isn't right" will coalesce into its counterpart, a sense of what is a right way to live.

When you have that, you can live it. And maybe, just maybe, engage in a little guerilla subversion to monkeyfuck the machine and lead everyone into a brighter light...

Thanks, I think the opposite a majority of the time so it's nice to hear it.

So eating a lot of acid will guide me to the perfect way of living? or for me at least? Sounds plausible...

and that would be amazing. I now have a goal and motto to live by and I will be getting acid later this week.

[Village Idiot]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

No, you're wrong. This is the problem here. This American, western, feminized bullshit. People in America and western Europe are brought in to this world and their parents, friends and the media tell them they have to live a certain way or they're a failure. You must go to college, get a job, a car, a house, debt, a wife, children, so on and so forth. People are raised to be narcissists in this part of the world. They are raised to treat their life as if it is a video game or a movie, as if verything must be an act. This is the wrong way to live.

OP like it or not you're going to be unhappy wherever you go so as long as you follow this way of thinking. If you go back to college and get a job, you're going to want more. You're going to want a new house, a car, a raise, etc. You will never be happy with what you have because it is impossible for 99.9999% of people who don't inherit wealth to achieve happily ever after status. Your best bet is to do what you said, get a menial job and just live the rest of your life surfing or doing whatever you want to do. You will be happier living humbly doing what you love than you will otherwise. There is absolutely no point in wasting the majority of your young adult life on college, aspiring for a socioeconomic class that is just as bad as everything below it, or whatever. None of the people that do this are happy, they're all afraid to die because they know they've done jack shit in life, spending most of their time in front of a textbook full of bullshit or the work on their desk, and they know they'll never get those years back. I don't know a single person that isn't like this and I've paid very close attention to this for nearly ten years of my life.

So fuck it, do whatever you want, transcend above this bullshit and you'll be instantly gratified knowing you live correctly. Do not, I repeat, do not fall in to this hope bullshit or this "let's get a plan together and change something!!!" foolishness. Do exactly what you were talking about regarding surfing.

Ah there we go. Nice post buddy. We were thinking on two different sides of the story. For some odd drunken reason last night I was trying to connect his problem with Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs. But whatever piece fits better is the better choice.

And OP, about the acid, I believe it was Aldous Huxley who consumed a great deal of acid on his death bed. Check him out.

[Mr.Happy]

There's a lifestyle out there for everybody. The reason society is geared towards this stereotypical lifestyle is that most people are happy to follow a conventional norm, and western society's conventional norm is something that allows most of those who follow it to live a reasonably comfortable life. Call the learn-work-die cycle a natural by-product of a developed, capitalist and egalitarian (or striving to be so) society. It enables the furtherance of societal goals and keeps most people happy.

If you're not content with the norm, there's no reason to pack up and leave. There are plenty of idiosyncratic and atypical occupations out there. A good was to start is to simply think "what do I enjoy?" and try to fit a lifestyle around that. It's very, very rare for a person to be completely happy with every aspect of their life, but if you can make the positives outweigh the rest, you can be contented. You need to find your own happiness though, because what works for some may not work for you.

Personally, I'm happy to work to pay the costs of living. I don't enjoy the work I do (outside of term time), but I'm happy to sell my services in order to be able to buy the products and services of others and I appreciate that it's only fair that there's give and take. I keep myself happy by maintaining a happy life outside of work and study, although I enjoy the subject I study and would be genuinely happy to work in the field once I get out of uni. Just make sure that what you do is for the fulfillment of your own goals, and not somebody else's. Do what you do because you want to do it or you appreciate that it can help you achieve your goals and aspirations, not because it's expected or 'the done thing'.

[molotov in the mornin]

Nigga WTF is a normal life?

that being said moving to hawaii does sound alot better than a so called "normal life" and move to hawaii. I'd do that but I'd miss all the people back here and would probly do some illegal stuff, jump bail and don't want dog the bounty hunter comin after me.

Just be grateful for what you have and the people you know and try to do a little better day by day. Or go to hawaii in dreamworld or something go for it, tis up to you

[Mirana]

Moving to paradise island isn't going to be nice as it sounds. You don't think the other 300 million americans thought of that? There's no work, the drug trade is all locked up. You'll end up collecting cans along the beach watching rich people lay on their cruise ship.

Like the above person said there is no such thing as normal. It's simply a way of thinking that everyone is raised into believing.

[JoePedo]

Originally Posted by refugee

Thanks, I think the opposite a majority of the time so it's nice to hear it.

Like I often tell my signifigant others - on the topic of your happiness, only your heart is right, because it's the only thing that knows what is best for you.

Originally Posted by refugee

So eating a lot of acid will guide me to the perfect way of living? or for me at least? Sounds plausible...

Well, that's the short answer, certainly.

The longer answer is that the answers to your happiness are already inside you, and it is self-knowledge and self-sensitivity which will help you elucidate these things you already know in more structured and actionable form.

'n nothing says self-knowledge and self-sensitivity like psychedelic shamanism.

Originally Posted by refugee

and that would be amazing. I now have a goal and motto to live by and I will be getting acid later this week.

Sweet!

Follow your heart... find your dream.

[1e-]

Originally Posted by refugee

college, relationships, family, friends, jobs, fucking everything. I just cant get into a fucking routine like everyone. I dropped out of college, cant maintain a relationship, havent talked to any of my immediate family in almost 4 years, I hate the people that hang around my house, and most of all i hate my god damn job, so I break the law and make money illegally instead.

I can't keep this shit up without ending up dead or in prison. Why is it that everyone else seems so content with following the "norm", but i can't stand the thought of a "career"? It's fucked up that I've gotta bullshit my way through the day and make it look like im satisfied with what I'm doing. I hate so much about everything around me, all stemming from my entire life preceding this. I'm sick of being pissed off all the time, and I'm sick of my past following me around, forcing me to live the way I do.

What the fuck guys... does anyone, anyone at all on this lousy bitch understand what im saying? any advice besides molotov everything or huff raid?

im close to selling off all my shit and leaving and just shacking up somewhere nice where no one knows me. just get an easy dead end job in hawaii and just live/surf for the rest of my life.

any takers on moving to hawaii? I never miss rent and just want to enjoy life, for once...

FUCKING-A. Life is like a fucking shell game, one youre bound to lose. Meanwhile, youre supposed to swallow all this America and apple-pie dream bullshit. As we can see its going down the shitter. I was 10 when I saw through this bullshit and determined being a wage-slave was not for me. Im not going to Hawaii, Im jettin for Mexico. Fuckin-A, i know the language, and I figure there is a low risk of drug war lords killing me so what the fuck? This country is a sinking ship full or rats. Im getting while the gettin is good. I totally understand you, Bro.

[xilikeeggs0]

1) Find out what you want to do.
2) Do it.
3) ???
4) Profit!

[Rocko]

The ideal of a normal life is a bullshit collection of media cliches that few if any people will ever meet.

Everyone around you may look normal and happy, but just like you they have a whole host of problems they keep hidden from everyone else.

[TruthWielder]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

No, you're wrong. This is the problem here. This American, western, feminized bullshit. People in America and western Europe are brought in to this world and their parents, friends and the media tell them they have to live a certain way or they're a failure. You must go to college, get a job, a car, a house, debt, a wife, children, so on and so forth. People are raised to be narcissists in this part of the world. They are raised to treat their life as if it is a video game or a movie, as if verything must be an act. This is the wrong way to live.

OP like it or not you're going to be unhappy wherever you go so as long as you follow this way of thinking. If you go back to college and get a job, you're going to want more. You're going to want a new house, a car, a raise, etc. You will never be happy with what you have because it is impossible for 99.9999% of people who don't inherit wealth to achieve happily ever after status. Your best bet is to do what you said, get a menial job and just live the rest of your life surfing or doing whatever you want to do. You will be happier living humbly doing what you love than you will otherwise. There is absolutely no point in wasting the majority of your young adult life on college, aspiring for a socioeconomic class that is just as bad as everything below it, or whatever. None of the people that do this are happy, they're all afraid to die because they know they've done jack shit in life, spending most of their time in front of a textbook full of bullshit or the work on their desk, and they know they'll never get those years back. I don't know a single person that isn't like this and I've paid very close attention to this for nearly ten years of my life.

So fuck it, do whatever you want, transcend above this bullshit and you'll be instantly gratified knowing you live correctly. Do not, I repeat, do not fall in to this hope bullshit or this "let's get a plan together and change something!!!" foolishness. Do exactly what you were talking about regarding surfing.

Great post, you sound like every other teenager bitching since societal norms were established more than 5000 years ago. Thats not "awesome" or "cool". Oh man! Everybody is just a bunch of sheep chewing the grass and scared of their existence? No shit. However, that doesn't mean the only way to live is to ignore societal norms and be a bum the rest of your life.

Those that have changed things, those that have brought change to societies, perspectives, nations, and people were not the people that said "lets just chill, fuck everything else". That is not the good life.

Human beings, all being creatures with inherent worth and potential, seek to realize that potential. The potential for love, virtue, creation, community etc... is all realizable if one works hard enough for it. You want to be a millionaire who gives money to charities and creates jobs for people? You go to college, apprentice yourself to a company, study the market and take creative, bold risks. You want to be a spiritually enlightened individual? You devote your life to the inner reflection and find a peaceful monastery/temple to contemplate existence and God. You want to invent an incredible idea that will change the world as we know it? Write a book that will touch hearts and minds? Fly? Swim? Eat? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Takeru_Kobayashi

You do what makes you happy, yes, but you follow your potential. Otherwise I assure you OP that you'll be just another bum that made nothing of himself and did nothing for the world, which are only slightly less common than the sheep you so readily denounce. Dont limit your dreams or being to a surfboard and a job at McDonalds. Be a leader, be a creator, be a lover, be anything, just be something, AND... be yourself.

[Young Meth]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

No, you're wrong. This is the problem here. This American, western, feminized bullshit. People in America and western Europe are brought in to this world and their parents, friends and the media tell them they have to live a certain way or they're a failure. You must go to college, get a job, a car, a house, debt, a wife, children, so on and so forth. People are raised to be narcissists in this part of the world. They are raised to treat their life as if it is a video game or a movie, as if verything must be an act. This is the wrong way to live.

OP like it or not you're going to be unhappy wherever you go so as long as you follow this way of thinking. If you go back to college and get a job, you're going to want more. You're going to want a new house, a car, a raise, etc. You will never be happy with what you have because it is impossible for 99.9999% of people who don't inherit wealth to achieve happily ever after status. Your best bet is to do what you said, get a menial job and just live the rest of your life surfing or doing whatever you want to do. You will be happier living humbly doing what you love than you will otherwise. There is absolutely no point in wasting the majority of your young adult life on college, aspiring for a socioeconomic class that is just as bad as everything below it, or whatever. None of the people that do this are happy, they're all afraid to die because they know they've done jack shit in life, spending most of their time in front of a textbook full of bullshit or the work on their desk, and they know they'll never get those years back. I don't know a single person that isn't like this and I've paid very close attention to this for nearly ten years of my life.

So fuck it, do whatever you want, transcend above this bullshit and you'll be instantly gratified knowing you live correctly. Do not, I repeat, do not fall in to this hope bullshit or this "let's get a plan together and change something!!!" foolishness. Do exactly what you were talking about regarding surfing.

Yeah that's great and all but you need some money to enjoy life.

Sad but true.

I'm already bored with the way my life is set to pan out in any imaginable way. The only fun parts of life are those that are not planned, if you think about it. Okay, that's not true, I'm just baked.

[refugee]

Originally Posted by Feds In Town

Yeah that's great and all but you need some money to enjoy life.

Sad but true.

well my rationale on that is it costs no money to surf. All you need is enough green to pay rent and eat.

[Sleep Is A Curse]

Our society is beautiful in that so many people have achieved greatly that we accept it to be the only way to live within mainstream society.

However If what you really want to do with your life is working by day and surf. I can't think of a reason not to.

Everyone who is happy or at least appears to be happy is because they're doing what they want to do with their life, Not because they're not doing what they want.

[boostinkyboo]

Fuck a normal life. Just do what will make you happy, and fuck everyone and everything else. Life is way too short to live any other way.

[dephdiddy]

Originally Posted by molotov in the mornin

Nigga WTF is a normal life?

that being said moving to hawaii does sound alot better than a so called "normal life" and move to hawaii. I'd do that but I'd miss all the people back here and would probly do some illegal stuff, jump bail and don't want dog the bounty hunter comin after me.

Just be grateful for what you have and the people you know and try to do a little better day by day. Or go to hawaii in dreamworld or something go for it, tis up to you

you talking to me, icer? you need god man.

[TruthWielder]

Originally Posted by Sleep Is A Curse

Our society is beautiful in that so many people have achieved greatly that we accept it to be the only way to live within mainstream society.

However If what you really want to do with your life is working by day and surf. I can't think of a reason not to.

Everyone who is happy or at least appears to be happy is because they're doing what they want to do with their life, Not because they're not doing what they want.

Remember that achieving great things does not mean achieving the great things that others have. Its about doing the best you can with what YOU have and not giving up on yourself.

To be honest, I feel all human beings can achieve great things, and if he feels there is something great he could do, why not encourage him?

Remember OP, stagnation and inaction is slavery, choice is freedom. (thanks courage wolf)

[refugee]

I believe I have just lost faith in all humanity... in 9 months I will be back in L.A. or oakland for 5-10 months and then I'm off to wander this pathetic world. IMO humans are pathetic in nature.

[the beat]

Originally Posted by refugee

I believe I have just lost faith in all humanity... in 9 months I will be back in L.A. or oakland for 5-10 months and then I'm off to wander this pathetic world.

Care to explain that?

[refugee]

Originally Posted by the beat

Care to explain that?

not really.

[the beat]

Originally Posted by refugee

not really.

You obviously started the thread for a reason.

[refugee]

Originally Posted by the beat

You obviously started the thread for a reason.

**first off the world isnt pathetic but i only believe humans are.


I did, and I came to a conclusion that normal is all about perception and millions of others feel the same way but to a lesser extent. I just feel detached from every other human, as if I cannot relate to anyone else. Obviously, I can't live a "normal" life because I am not "normal." But seeing as how I have come to terms with that, I can live my life, whatever I feel I want to do, I will do because it is all about the experience now. If I can't live a normal life, I might as well live a remarkable life.

there will be another thread one day describing my plans, but only after they are set in motion. mark your calendar.

[the beat]

Cool, well I didn't read the whole thread, but you should probably sell your possessions, move to a mountain village and be a liftee. I would say BC but you probably can't get across the border. I'm sure Colorado would be nice.

You won't make any money, but fuck money, you're after the experience.

[refugee]

Originally Posted by the beat

Cool, well I didn't read the whole thread, but you should probably sell your possessions, move to a mountain village and be a liftee. I would say BC but you probably can't get across the border. I'm sure Colorado would be nice.

You won't make any money, but fuck money, you're after the experience.

Im living in colorado... and I would sell all my posessions, but I have a very limited number of them, I came out here with two trashbags of clothes, a snowboard, skateboard, and a laptop. Now I have a bed, dresser, TV, a bass, and im broke as fuck.
I'd love to just work as a liftie but the town I live in isn't deemed a "snow town" though it snowed maybe 15 times this entire season, and Im still an hour from any lifts. But unfortunately it costs more to live in the snow than in warm weather, so I'm headed back to the beaches.

and why wouldn't I be able to get over the canadian border? I have some family somewhere up there, though we havent spoken in years and years.

[Struwwelpeter]

TruthWielder: Productivity is in the eye of the beholder. Becoming a religious fundamentalist or another investor is no different from surfing all day. We all die and ultimately all of our efforts are futile and pointless, it's all relative to your own perspective of the world. You probably couldn't stand a week in my shoes and I most certainly wouldn't go near yours. You seem pretty optimistic about being some sort of creator, a leader, or an innovator, or that you are going to live a luxurious lifestyle or that you wish to be considered important by the rest of the world, I've got three words for you: delusions of grandeur.

[Bad_Intentions]

Originally Posted by refugee

college, relationships, family, friends, jobs, fucking everything. I just cant get into a fucking routine like everyone. I dropped out of college, cant maintain a relationship, havent talked to any of my immediate family in almost 4 years, I hate the people that hang around my house, and most of all i hate my god damn job, so I break the law and make money illegally instead.

I can't keep this shit up without ending up dead or in prison. Why is it that everyone else seems so content with following the "norm", but i can't stand the thought of a "career"? It's fucked up that I've gotta bullshit my way through the day and make it look like im satisfied with what I'm doing. I hate so much about everything around me, all stemming from my entire life preceding this. I'm sick of being pissed off all the time, and I'm sick of my past following me around, forcing me to live the way I do.

What the fuck guys... does anyone, anyone at all on this lousy bitch understand what im saying? any advice besides molotov everything or huff raid?

im close to selling off all my shit and leaving and just shacking up somewhere nice where no one knows me. just get an easy dead end job in hawaii and just live/surf for the rest of my life.

any takers on moving to hawaii? I never miss rent and just want to enjoy life, for once...

Do live life for the expirience(sp? drunk) like Death merchant said, i think, but try and find a job you like, having passion for your job will make your life so much better, do what you think will improve your life, have fun and take risks.
Live for today.

[TruthWielder]

Originally Posted by Jim "fuck latinos" Carrey

TruthWielder: Productivity is in the eye of the beholder. Becoming a religious fundamentalist or another investor is no different from surfing all day. We all die and ultimately all of our efforts are futile and pointless, it's all relative to your own perspective of the world. You probably couldn't stand a week in my shoes and I most certainly wouldn't go near yours. You seem pretty optimistic about being some sort of creator, a leader, or an innovator, or that you are going to live a luxurious lifestyle or that you wish to be considered important by the rest of the world, I've got three words for you: delusions of grandeur.

Remember that I defined neither "success" or "greatness". What separate the following of one course of action from the other is the force of will put behind it, rather than stagnation and putrification that comes from placing self-imposed limitations upon ourselves. "Nah...I can't write that life changing book", "no...I can't afford college". Its all made up. You define your possibilities. And if your a surfer, you better try to be the best damn surfer you can be.

I deny that it is all relative because no matter how we try to renounce responsibility for our thought and actions we are, ultimately, responsible for them. We are masters of change. Thus, there is good and evil, right and wrong, and it has a place in our lives. Because we are given the choice between them. You can waste that choice, or you can follow the path that will elevate you.

As far as my beliefs concerning my life...well yeah, I'm pretty optimistic. I know both what I am capable of and the reasons I would want to get there. I see that men before me have fought and overcome. I understand that it is within my power to do so as well, I must simply open my eyes to the path and walk it, as anyone else can do. So...are my dreams and goals delusions of grandeur? Well...we'll just have to wait and see.