I fucking had enough to the point where my head is cooked and I would like to harm myself because I just cant see the light.
The shit hit the fan 3 days ago when I was sitting alone and chilling and my folks started on me because I plan on living as a woman they turned nasty and I refused to talk to them because I know when they are like that they start with the abuse, Because I would not talk to them they started to throw things and damage my property and I grabbed hold of one of them by the arm and held their arm back in such a position where I could break their arm "not that I was going to" i was just trying to stop them for doing damage.
Anyways I did not hurt them in anyway and I let go and they then threatened to have me arrested for assault "even though all I did was grab and hold their arm" they said "if you do not talk with us we will have you arrested"
Then they went on to say if you do not talk with us we will have you sectioned.
By this time things where getting out of hand I rant out and called for the police and they came. Talked to me and my folks and the police took me to my friends house where i stayed for two days.
I came back home to look after and feed the pets and when I did my mum asked if i was leaving home and I replied yes and then she said "I do not want you to leave home I cant cope with this and she went over and grabbed some pills and proceeded to take them "OD" and I grabbed the pills and all the other meds i could find and I took them to the pharmacy to dispose of.
Now i feel I cant fucking leave because she will try and hurt herself.
right now I could quiet happily take a knife to my wrists because I cant see a way forward.
I feel like iv been emotionally blackmailed ,gone through fucking crap these past 3 days and I thought I would try and apply for a job but when people see i have a womans name they would not want to employ me i think.
I just want to escape and cant see a way out of this fucked up mess.
all this because they wanted to try and talk me out of living as a woman.
Coauthor of i-steal.com
Stealing your innocents
Do you really need to live as a woman? Is it that big a deal, seriously? So many people don't get what they want. Wouldn't it be more fun and exciting, and a better challenge to learn to love the body you're in?
"I sell vacuum cleaners." -- Tachosomoza
Can you pick a gender-neutral name for the time being? Or apply for a job at a company that's likely to be more liberally minded? Right now you're convincing yourself the worst will happen before you even try- go out there. Your parents are just your parents- their view of you doesn't determine the view the rest of the world will have toward you.