I'm a fucking idiot for doing this

[STD]

2mg lorazepam, 300mg DXM, half an hour later, 2 shots of vodka. Not much by my standards, but you should consider that yesterday I went into gran mal seizures due to either my alcohol/benzos wearing off, the huffing of raid on live webcam, or some retarded preventable shit like that.

Yet here I am, drinking and taking kids' medicine again.

What the fuck, man.

[jheit8]

The benzos stop seizures.
Then again, you're on SSRIs, so what do you expect.
Fuck off/Murder/Suicide

[sepht]

I'm guessing you have some sort of underlying trauma youre trying to cover up with drugs.

And the drug use created a domino effect, which exasperates your situation more and more until drugs are the only thing you have left.

[Savino]

Go on and push it already

[komokazi]

Damn son, get your money up.

[Shrike]

Just kill yourself already. Make sure to film it and hang a sign around your neck saying Zoklet made you do it. We need the press.

[broseph]

take up surfing or some shit.

[SBTlauien]

How shitty if you end up a vegetable or something...

I'd just drink some beers and smoked some weed.

[A$AP Weed Smoker]

Originally Posted by STD

2mg lorazepam, 300mg DXM, half an hour later, 2 shots of vodka. Not much by my standards, but you should consider that yesterday I went into gran mal seizures due to either my alcohol/benzos wearing off, the huffing of raid on live webcam, or some retarded preventable shit like that.

Yet here I am, drinking and taking kids' medicine again.

What the fuck, man.

If you're gonna self-sabotage yourself, do it right man. Go buy some rigs and put that vodka straight in your blood. the less you know about safe IV procedure, the better. i mean shit, look at me.



and i've only shot up like 5 times ever! Imagine how much you could fuck yourself up if you made this a habit. Come on man, do it!

[STD]

Originally Posted by Weed Smoker

If you're gonna self-sabotage yourself, do it right man. Go buy some rigs and put that vodka straight in your blood. the less you know about safe IV procedure, the better. i mean shit, look at me.



and i've only shot up like 5 times ever! Imagine how much you could fuck yourself up if you made this a habit. Come on man, do it!

I'm seriously tempted to pick up some syringes today already..

[A$AP Weed Smoker]

Originally Posted by STD

I'm seriously tempted to pick up some syringes today already..

It's really the only way to go. I've COMPLETELY ruined my life which was going great last Thursday. For whatever reason you like this self-destruction shit, I'm gonna tell you it gets realer than you could imagine and you will truly know pain. I bet that sounds good to your sick ass, but it's worse than you could ever fathom and I have barely dipped my toes in the water.

[Savino]

What exactly is your goal STD? I mean clearly you are trying to fuck youself up as much as possible, but why? I assume you realize that you really are FUCKING yourself up, and you have a sad painful future ahead of you. I understand wanting to be high and shit, but doing dangerous combos and doses you know are no good, I dont understand. Did you wake up one morning and say "im going to kill myself!", and go out and start getting all kinds of dangerous drugs and sharp instruments?

[STEROS]

Originally Posted by STD

syringes

y0 d4wg, real druggies call them, "POINTS".

...just for future reference.

[constantinople]

As if someone having a seizure would have the presence of mind to know if it's a grand mal seizure.


God you're such a lying attention seeking faggot it's indescribable.

[psychomanthis]

Did you happen to read what i posted in your huffing raid thread the other day?

[sploogook]

as Neil Armstrong was the first man to walk on the moon, STD is the first man to huff insect killer habitually.

i was looking for your "make one sentence about me" thread earlier but i couldnt find it so here ya go

[sepht]

Steve O IV Vodka - YouTube

Steve O IV Vodka - YouTube
Video: click to display

[STD]

Originally Posted by Weed Smoker

It's really the only way to go. I've COMPLETELY ruined my life which was going great last Thursday. For whatever reason you like this self-destruction shit, I'm gonna tell you it gets realer than you could imagine and you will truly know pain. I bet that sounds good to your sick ass, but it's worse than you could ever fathom and I have barely dipped my toes in the water.

first step is just to draw out my own blood and paint with it

Originally Posted by STEROS

y0 d4wg, real druggies call them, "POINTS".

...just for future reference.

k thanks, one day maybe i will reach that level <3

Originally Posted by DR.PAPADROPADOCALOPALIS

As if someone having a seizure would have the presence of mind to know if it's a grand mal seizure.


God you're such a lying attention seeking faggot it's indescribable.

i had half a dozen people watching me, paramedics observing me, and my own observations (before and after) and while I know, so STFU.

Originally Posted by psychomanthis

Did you happen to read what i posted in your huffing raid thread the other day?

not sure... if i did i forgot it

Originally Posted by sepht

Steve O IV Vodka - YouTube

my god that screams "challenge accepted"

[psychomanthis]

This is what i posted:


Upon some research i have discovered that raid contains a total of four insecticides.

Permethrin.
Tetramethrin.
Imiprothrin.
Cypermethrin.

While the first three have relatively low acute toxicity. The last one is pretty nasty and can with high or repeated exposure cause: nausea, headache, muscle weakness, shortness of breath and seizures.

What also might be interesting to note is that in research on this compound scientists have shown that:

Originally Posted by Wikipedia

in male rats, cypermethrin can exhibit a toxic effect on the reproductive system. After 15 days of continual dosing, both androgen receptor levels and serum testosterone levels were significantly reduced. These data suggested that cypermethrin can induce impairments of the structure of seminiferous tubules and spermatogenesis in male rats

And:

Originally Posted by Wikipedia

Long term exposure to cypermethrin during adulthood is found to induce the dopaminergic neurodegeneration in rats and postnatal exposure enhances the susceptibility of animals to dopaminergic neurodegeneration if rechallenged during adulthood

Still sounds like a good idea? I hope you are just trolling. Just in case though think about what i posted before you decide to actually huff fucking raid.

[sepht]

Originally Posted by psychomanthis

dopaminergic neurodegeneration

Considering STD feels no effects despite ingesting massive amounts of drugs, it's safe to say his neurons are fucked beyond all hope, hence the insecticide.

If he does somehow manages to go clean, he wont be able to feel happy or fulfilled for the rest of his sad life.

[STD]

well, i've decided not to huff any more raid until i can get it set up properly, i.e. fire it down a hose into my throat with nobody around to disturb me. then we'll actually see if it does anything.

[psychomanthis]

Originally Posted by STD

well, i've decided not to huff any more raid until i can get it set up properly, i.e. fire it down a hose into my throat with nobody around to disturb me. then we'll actually see if it does anything.

[Cthulhu]

What the fuck man

[sploogook]

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