i just want to end it all

[nonarky]

I really feel like shit everyday, really down and depressed, down the street, there is a dam, i just want to jump down into it and drown,

it is at the point where i can do this anytime, or maybe after posting this thread.

there is no way i'm going to get help because i don't have insurance or money to pay for the bill's.

so right now its i either do it or not.

i don't give a fuck about my friends because they treat me like shit and always leave me out to trips to go places, i'm always left behind by my friends.

i don't give a fuck about my family either.

i hate my girlfriend because she fucks other guys and when i confront her about it she denies it and starts crying.

i really wish i can be happy like other people, but i never am.

i know what the problem is that is making me feel this way, but i can't solve it
and i don't want to talk about it because it will make me feel more like shit.

i just want to drown my self and go on into a different life.

i wish i could stop feeling this way, but it wont happen.

nobody, not my friends know i feel this way or my family,

they think i am alright, but i am not and i don't want to tell them about it or my friends.


i just wanted to get this all out of my head before i actually go and do what i am going to do, that is why i posted this

[Mirana]

Travel on-top of a mountain and train your body & mind through the harshest of natures, then meditate for 3 days & 3 nights, travel down the walkway to the village and kill the tribe leader and marry his sister.

You are destined for great things, nonarky. I would much like to see you conquer this world.

[Vox Ducis]

Think of those people who treat you like shit. Think of those hypocrites crying at your funeral. Are you going to give them that pleasure ?

Come on, man, take a cold shower, slap yourself if necessary, and show them you're far from being a shit. Find a job, harrass managers if you must, but get that suicide idea out of your head.

[T.K. Baha]

Kill yourself you worthless fuck. Your not going to get any sympathy here bitching about your pathetic life nor will you get any bitching about it to people you meet. Your attitude is the best way to not improve your life. No ones life is easy and we all have problems and hearing some whiny little bitch cry about his own only makes the rest of us want to kill you. Most of the shit you bitch about is your own doing.

Let me ask you this. Do you like being unhappy? Some people lead such meaningless boring lives that they construct this bubble of worry and unhappiness for the sake of having something worth worrying about. And people like that are a drain on the ones around them so do us all a favor and eat some rat poison.

[bigfoot]

there are too many good times ahead, we got some sights to see and some bad people to slap down (sometimes those two things will happen at the same time)

hitch hike across the country, hithhike across the atlantic on a boat, do some weird shit in austria (odd people_) climb the alps. go to china

kill some CEO's of bad companys
but do not top yourself for at least another year, have a year of completely different surroundings and different people then have another long hard think.

ps if your not vegan go ahead, one less meat head we could do without..

[nonarky]

Originally Posted by Vox Ducis

Think of those people who treat you like shit. Think of those hypocrites crying at your funeral. Are you going to give them that pleasure ?

Come on, man, take a cold shower, slap yourself if necessary, and show them you're far from being a shit. Find a job, harrass managers if you must, but get that suicide idea out of your head.

i do have a job, but i hate that as well, i work at home depot, fucking tool rental

[AdMech]

That sounds pretty rotten, nonarky. There are a few things to think about, though:

0. Drowning is a shitty way to die.

1. Situations change. Someday this will just be a bad memory.

2. How do you know your girlfriend is cheating on you? If you're sure, dump her. You don't need that.

3. Turn to drugs if all else fails, but be careful they don't make your situation worse.

[Daily]

Just join the fucking army and kill people and shit. Fuck this pussy shit, rape and kill your girlfriend as well.

[Vox Ducis]

Originally Posted by Twisted_Ferret

3. Turn to drugs if all else fails, but be careful they don't make your situation worse.

I don't see how you can avoid a worse situation this way.

[nonarky]

Originally Posted by SAS

Kill yourself you worthless fuck. Your not going to get any sympathy here bitching about your pathetic life nor will you get any bitching about it to people you meet. Your attitude is the best way to not improve your life. No ones life is easy and we all have problems and hearing some whiny little bitch cry about his own only makes the rest of us want to kill you. Most of the shit you bitch about is your own doing.

Let me ask you this. Do you like being unhappy? Some people lead such meaningless boring lives that they construct this bubble of worry and unhappiness for the sake of having something worth worrying about. And people like that are a drain on the ones around them so do us all a favor and eat some rat poison.

i am not looking for sympathy, i posted this because i just wanted it to be let out of my head.

you have no idea what depression is

[AdMech]

Originally Posted by Vox Ducis

I don't see how you can avoid a worse situation this way.

Shit, it's better than killing yourself. It worked for me. If you're more afraid of things like dirty needles and dangerous product than not being high, it's easier to keep yourself relatively healthy.

[Slick50]

I can relate nonarcy,

I have very sexy and loving wife, a 7 year old I love.
I live in a $300,000 home on 60 acre, own two businesses, and make a very heathy draw off of both..For the longest time I just blowed $$$ left and right, it seems to make me feel better. I've restored numouse classic musle cars in my garage.

I take a 10 mg valium in the morning and another about 4 pm and seem to do better. I have to buy them on the street but thats not bad because there conciterably cheeper than a scrip. Most Dr. try to give you Mickey Mouse medician which isn't worth a fuck.

Chill and smoke a joint, and always remember whether you know it or not there are people who know and love you.


One BIG thing I had to learn is $$$$ can't make you happy.

[Paco]

Originally Posted by Pain

Just join the fucking army and kill people and shit. Fuck this pussy shit, rape and kill your girlfriend as well.

this mother fucker, and if your not gonna do it, stfu or do it bitch

[DJ Meaty Cheeks]

Originally Posted by Slick50

I can relate nonarcy,

I have very sexy and loving wife, a 7 year old I love.
I live in a $300,000 home on 60 acre, own two businesses, and make a very heathy draw off of both..For the longest time I just blowed $$$ left and right, it seems to make me feel better. I've restored numouse classic musle cars in my garage.

I take a 10 mg valium in the morning and another about 4 pm and seem to do better. I have to buy them on the street but thats not bad because there conciterably cheeper than a scrip. Most Dr. try to give you Mickey Mouse medician which isn't worth a fuck.

Chill and smoke a joint, and always remember whether you know it or not there are people who know and love you.

Looking for something to do with your money? Send it to me.

[Slick50]

Being in all the shit I've been in in the last few years my wife has complete control of my cash and business. I get to skim very little out of one of the business. I had to sign everything over to her to keep Uncle Sam from seizing all my assets, he got ENOUGH.

I had to do a HELL of a lot of Flirting with my Fat Ass Probation officer to final get free. I has 10 years of probation and had to report every month for drug test. About one year into it my officer told me her superior was on vacation. Her and another officer filled out paper work and mailed to the Govenor for an early dismisal, which he did two months later.
Them two gals supirior was PISSEd when she found out the Govenor let me go.

[samguy700]

make sure to kill everyone first.

[Legend]

Murder-suicide is the way, not that you're going to do it.

See you tomorrow.

[all_for_war]

Originally Posted by nonarky

I really feel like shit everyday, really down and depressed, down the street, there is a dam, i just want to jump down into it and drown,

it is at the point where i can do this anytime, or maybe after posting this thread.

there is no way i'm going to get help because i don't have insurance or money to pay for the bill's.

so right now its i either do it or not.

i don't give a fuck about my friends because they treat me like shit and always leave me out to trips to go places, i'm always left behind by my friends.

i don't give a fuck about my family either.

i hate my girlfriend because she fucks other guys and when i confront her about it she denies it and starts crying.

i really wish i can be happy like other people, but i never am.

i know what the problem is that is making me feel this way, but i can't solve it
and i don't want to talk about it because it will make me feel more like shit.

i just want to drown my self and go on into a different life.

i wish i could stop feeling this way, but it wont happen.

nobody, not my friends know i feel this way or my family,

they think i am alright, but i am not and i don't want to tell them about it or my friends.


i just wanted to get this all out of my head before i actually go and do what i am going to do, that is why i posted this

What are you waiting for.

[Lord hang man]

Don't do it guy, none of us even know you yet. Think about what you got to live for.

[Animal Farm Pig]

nonarky, it sounds like you are suffering from depression. Depression happens when your brain is not functioning in the "normal" way. It sucks big donkey balls, but, luckily, it's a treatable thing. Not having insurance or much money will make it more of a challenge, but there are options.

When I was a teenager, I was hospitalized for depression after failing to kill myself. I did not see a reason to live, so I figured I'd just get it all over with. That was twelve years ago, and, to be honest, I still don't really see a compelling reason to go on living. It just doesn't bother me so much. After the hospitalization, I got better. My life hasn't exactly been 100% smooth sailing since then, but it's been interesting. I'm glad I didn't die, and I like thinking about where life will lead next.

I really hope you choose to fix yourself. Life can be a pleasant thing when you're not depressed.

[nutsack]

Go do something really hard; physically and mentally. There's no time to be depressed when you need to concentrate totally on the moment at hand.

[KevinLoveIsMyHero]

you fuckin loser dude just fucking do it and shut the fuck up

[LiquidIce]

I'd say to lose those friends and lose that girlfriend. Sure, there is a huge deficit of friends and girlfriends in this day and age, but maybe you'll be better off without them. Sure, loneliness sucks, but use it to start doing various things - go to a gym, pick up a few books, start a hobby, get into DIY etc.

[Treefingers.s]

If you really want to end it all, try moving as far away as you can. That is your best bet buddy.

Making new friends and - wait, How old are you?

[Valheru]

Originally Posted by Slick50

One BIG thing I had to learn is $$$$ can't make you happy.

That's THE single most important lesson ANYBODY could learn in life.

Unfortunately, it's not something you CAN learn for yourself. Only life and experience teaches it, and unfortunately some people NEVER grok the lesson their entire lives, and spend so much energy and emotional well-being on chasing artificial phantoms that society creates for us to chase.

[Uriah Heep]

If you want to die, do fight a bear, hand to hand combat, and if you win, you will want to keep living, if you die, you got what you wanted in the begining...win win situation my friend.

[0omnidirectional]

Sounds to me like it's time for a self reconstruction.

[Chavinist]

murder/suicide

[The Jitterskull]

Originally Posted by nonarky

I really feel like shit everyday, really down and depressed, down the street, there is a dam, i just want to jump down into it and drown,

it is at the point where i can do this anytime, or maybe after posting this thread.

there is no way i'm going to get help because i don't have insurance or money to pay for the bill's.

so right now its i either do it or not.

i don't give a fuck about my friends because they treat me like shit and always leave me out to trips to go places, i'm always left behind by my friends.

i don't give a fuck about my family either.

i hate my girlfriend because she fucks other guys and when i confront her about it she denies it and starts crying.

i really wish i can be happy like other people, but i never am.

i know what the problem is that is making me feel this way, but i can't solve it
and i don't want to talk about it because it will make me feel more like shit.

i just want to drown my self and go on into a different life.

i wish i could stop feeling this way, but it wont happen.

nobody, not my friends know i feel this way or my family,

they think i am alright, but i am not and i don't want to tell them about it or my friends.


i just wanted to get this all out of my head before i actually go and do what i am going to do, that is why i posted this

Kill yourself and you'll just re-enter another body with the same tribulations. Don't do it, unless you want to re-live your pain again for an extra (how many years you've been here).

Find out what's a poison in your life and cut it off.
Girlfriend cheating? Break up.
Friends not being friends? Don't talk to them/dissociate.
Doing bad at school? Study, or go find a trade.
Got bad health? Eat better and exercise.

Don't to drugs, they never end well.

[Legend]

Is nonarky still alive?

[AdMech]

Yeah, he just hasn't replied to this thread. What a bitch.

[skyclaw441]

Maybe he went and killed himself, or maybe he went to bed? Well, not surprisingly over half of you are being dicks. Just keep this in mind, it will get better. I know it seems impossible, but I went through a very similar situation, and I held out a little hope. Just think of it this way. Life is like a hike through the mountains. There are very low valleys and very high peaks. You're just in the bottom of a valley. Keep climbing to the peak. Be strong, smoke a joint, relax, do what you've got to do.

[Von Wafer]

Do it like I am Legend

[Lman1578]

Remember your finest memory. Dont you want more? Youve hardly lived your life. Think about all those veterans that went through mega shit, to get us where we are now. And how much people accomplish after having hard times.. many go onto great things. Thats always been my inspiration when i feel like crap. Life is always changing bro, you got to not be afraid to take it in your own hands. dont let your life live you man.. you live your life. take it by the thorns steer it into the direction you want to go. Its just like throwing a ball, look in the direction where you want it to go, visualize it, and fucken get out there and do it. Dont lose focus.

Note- that rihanna song shamely gets me going "live your life ehhhhhh" id do her.

And if your really really keen on doing it, get mega big, like MJ or Heath Ledger, then you will be remembered.. and a statue will be resurrected in your honor.

[Im Bored]

Go on an epic killing spree.

[Travis Bickle]

heh, you'll probably be happy once you die, no worrying, nothing.

[MasterPlan]

Hm...

First, i dont know how old you are but we'l start here.


If youre trying to make a statement by killing yourself, dont. A guy blew his head off a couple of weeks ago. Now nobody even remembers his name. I sure as hell dont. A suicide is about as significant as someone passing gass to the general public. Actualy the later might make more noise and might get talked about more. You sure as hell will hurt your family though.


Try to be more open with your family. They are the first and last people in your life. The only group of people you really have to be honest with.

As for friends and girlfriends dont fret about that people come and go find a new girlfriend find new friends. The world is quite large, if its important enough for you to have friends you enjoy and a girlfriend you are happy with there is no reason you wont find them.

Also missery is quite comforting and familiar especialy if youve been with it for some time now. If you are to lazy or to afraid to change your life then misserable you will stay. The solution to this kind of shit is generaly prety simple.

The logic is as follows. Your life sucks then something must be wrong with it. If you want your life not to suck or at least to suck less then you have to change something . Thats prety much it. Dont be lazy. Get shit done get it over with. Man up and get through whatever it is that you need to do. Quit being scared of it.

It would be such a shame to die now too, its like walking out half way through the movie.
Not only are you cheating yourself out of some cheap entertainment but other people might like to see how it ends as well.


Also I recomend a good 4 hour hike ideally somewhere uphill. If youre brave enough you can get a bottle of vodka and get absolutely smashed that night on top of it. In the mornight i gaurantee you that you wont have the brainpower to worry about anything.

A good way to start your rehabilitation.



All these suicide threads over the years. Dont know why bother to reply. I guess i feel like inspiring someone today.

[Syphilis]

Originally Posted by nonarky

i don't give a fuck about my friends because they treat me like shit and always leave me out to trips to go places, i'm always left behind by my friends.

Then they aren't your friends. Get some new ones.

i hate my girlfriend because she fucks other guys and when i confront her about it she denies it and starts crying.

Dump her and respect yourself.

[DeadLegend]

Kill yourself you worthless fuck. Your not going to get any sympathy here bitching about your pathetic life nor will you get any bitching about it to people you meet. Your attitude is the best way to not improve your life. No ones life is easy and we all have problems and hearing some whiny little bitch cry about his own only makes the rest of us want to kill you. Most of the shit you bitch about is your own doing.

Let me ask you this. Do you like being unhappy? Some people lead such meaningless boring lives that they construct this bubble of worry and unhappiness for the sake of having something worth worrying about. And people like that are a drain on the ones around them so do us all a favor and eat some rat poison

Dont listen to people that say shit like this.

There fucking worthless kidiots who have no idea what reali life is and think that there CPU crashing is just about the worse thing that could happen to there lives.

They have no idea about real problems and arent worth a fucking damn when it comes to advice (these are the type of people i was refering to in my thread last night)

Anyone who you would say "i feel like killing myself" and they say ohhh do it pussy, are obviously 12 year old "hail thee assholes"

But man, all i can say, is try some therapy and meds dude. If that doesnt help then do what you gotta do. But you say you dont care about your family, do you have a mother?

Cause when i was contemplating suicide, my mom always came into my head and shes probably the biggest reason i never did it.

[Mudokon Farmer]

If you're posting on Zoklet as your final wishes, you're either faking it or deserve to die.