I'm 18 and I have no feelings

[Manifesto]

Acid acid acid acid lsd!!!!!

Seriously, I guarantee two hits of some good blotter and your problems will be solved, my man.

[Iolite]

Originally Posted by mafiabro

See, now i'm going to cut my self

Me too, you just wrote such an accurate description of me that I think I'll never post here again.
That's such an uncanny ability, I'm TOTALLY the guy with black hair and nailpolish sitting in the back corner silently looking down ever day.
But fuck all those around me man, becuase I'm an ARTIST ya know?


P.S. You don't really know anyone you know, and if you do; they're just as boring and moronic as you are.


And to the above post, No.
Acid would be wasted, because my mind would drift off into thoughts of existence and all that crap though it's interesting and insanely complex, it's all useless at the end of the day when it becomes nothing more than something that's just in your head.
And that's exactly what I'm trying to get out of

[mafiabro]

Originally Posted by Iolite

Me too, you just wrote such an accurate description of me that I think I'll never post here again.
That's such an uncanny ability, I'm TOTALLY the guy with black hair and nailpolish sitting in the back corner silently looking down ever day.
But fuck all those around me man, becuase I'm an ARTIST ya know?


P.S. You don't really know anyone you know, and if you do; they're just as boring and moronic as you are.

your really determined to be a pussy about this aren't you

[Iolite]

Wut is sarcazm

[Jeff Gatherer]

feeling nothing is better than repressed misery, believe me. And if life seems repetitive and pointless, that`s because it usually is.

[Mor3BL7]

Originally Posted by Iolite

I'm not here to give life stories anymore.
Right now, my feelings feel like they're trapped underneath a thick layer of foam. Almost like ghosts trying to escape from a bottle, and although i have improved by a long shot----I still have the sensation of "waterfalling" thoughts.

I was incredibly depressed earlier this year, and put on lexapro 2.5 mg every day (I have a low tolerance for everything) and felt like I was going to physically explode every single day. My perception feels like it's missing something....something important, something important enough to intensify the outer edges of my perception.
I guess that whole search for a solid reality left me with this, a reality that everyone could agree with. A reality where everything I said sounded right.....
This entire wall of text was written with no feeling or emotion behind it, or at least it feels that way.
I'm sick of this monotonous life style of college, home, play with guns, read, bass, repeat, recycle.
I know I don't want to be one of the idiots that think you're a loser if you spend more than 2 hours inside your house, but I just feel like there's so much more out there that I already know about.

Lol at me thanking him

[mafiabro]

Originally Posted by Iolite

Wut is sarcazm

THANK YOU for opening my eyes and showing me that that post was full of sarcasm. my feeble mind would not have been able to realize this. You are such a fantastic person, that i have begun construction of you statue in your honor. Would you like it in gold or granite Sir?

[Sookie]

How come every 18-year old on Zok claims to be stone cold, sociopathic, emotionless?

Don't think of yourself that way. Maybe this sounds girly and gay and shit, but if you tell yourself that you're gonna live a great life, and people are good, and there are fun things to do, then your attitude's gonna be a lot better.

Granted you have the whole drug thing going on, but why don't you just like... stop taking everything, go spend a weekend up in the mountains, and chill the fuck out? Life isn't too bad, son.

[Iolite]

That's what I've done, minus the mountains part.
I rarely have time for that anymore.
I must be doing SOMETHING right, because there's no doubt that I've gotten a lot better compared to a year ago when the only feeling I had was a constant rage that i've never seen anywhere else.
I guess I just wish there was a quicker way
@mafiabro
It's quite hard to tell if what I typed was beyond you or not, based on your first reply.

[mafiabro]

You didn't reply fast enough so now you get gold

[Iolite]

Originally Posted by mafiabro

You didn't reply fast enough so now you get gold

I didn't understand this post, but I sure got the other ones.

This is yet another example of a very, very common occurence in day to day life.

The person behind the words posted by the surname "mafiabro" felt threatened by what I posted, because he was able to connect with what I wrote to his own personal experiences, in one way or another....
In order to prove himself, he had to be the conservative father figure telling the "new generation pussy" that his psychological problems are nothing more than a facade to hide behind....to draw attention away from himself.


I pity people like you mafiabro, because it must be so lonely when you don't even know yourself.

[mafiabro]

Originally Posted by Iolite

I didn't understand this post, but I sure got the other ones.

This is yet another example of a very, very common occurence in day to day life.

The person behind the words posted by the surname "mafiabro" felt threatened by what I posted, because he was able to connect with what I wrote to his own personal experiences, in one way or another....
In order to prove himself, he had to be the conservative father figure telling the "new generation pussy" that his psychological problems are nothing more than a facade to hide behind....to draw attention away from himself.


I pity people like you mafiabro, because it must be so lonely when you don't even know yourself.

If you didn't get why i made it, then no, you didn't get all my other posts. If you didn't get the meaning, I'm being an asshole for quick lulz before i carry on with my day.
I'm afraid that you have over thought the situation, and have come to the conclusion that i am displaying a cry for help. This is false, i am having a laugh at your expense. The problem here is that you A: Tried your hardest to better yourself than me when you are the one with the problem, and B: Played pretend shrink and tried to label someone over the internet. You also have no one but yourself to blame for the reply's calling you a pussy. You came here complaining about your life expecting us to console you and help you find your way. Do you think people honestly want to hear about your emotional problems? Your taking the internet to seriously, Your taking life to seriously. I look forward to your response, as i am sure that you will come up with something "Deep", to try and convince yourself you understand life so much more than everyone else when, in reality,you lack even one iota of sense in your confused head.

[Mr. White]

I have not read much of this thread.

[Iolite]

Originally Posted by mafiabro

If you didn't get why i made it, then no, you didn't get all my other posts. If you didn't get the meaning, I'm being an asshole for quick lulz before i carry on with my day.
I'm afraid that you have over thought the situation, and have come to the conclusion that i am displaying a cry for help. This is false, i am having a laugh at your expense. The problem here is that you A: Tried your hardest to better yourself than me when you are the one with the problem, and B: Played pretend shrink and tried to label someone over the internet. You also have no one but yourself to blame for the reply's calling you a pussy. You came here complaining about your life expecting us to console you and help you find your way. Do you think people honestly want to hear about your emotional problems? Your taking the internet to seriously, Your taking life to seriously. I look forward to your response, as i am sure that you will come up with something "Deep", to try and convince yourself you understand life so much more than everyone else when, in reality,you lack even one iota of sense in your confused head.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
thank you for making my day, i love laughing at the idiots expense