I will build a house for us
and construct a door to nowhere
through which we can live and think and
die alone in harmony. I never understood
why we climbed the stalks so elegantly--
corn spiders awaiting ergot
spindly legs and sewn in-between--
I've feared your eight legs and eyes ever since.
you walked methodical and ravenous.
I think you destroyed me, you and your posterity.
But I've forgiven you. Everything and all of us.
...really, no, no....
When I'm sober enough, I think I might quit.
I think I might think this is enough, but there you are
tainting the earth with your poisons.
I want to suck it in, I want to explode.
I once thought I could solve the universe
by calculating the expenditure of energy
in each given locale, and
I'm sure I was right
I'm already out of it. We're already dead.
There are exceptions to every role
played throughout this short history
of narratives and tragic
blends of genes and molecules.
I sometimes think that this earth is mars
space-time bent to see our future. I can't
help but see the future as a sandstorm
eating the skin and soul of our
I wan...y..u to k..ow I ..... ... .. you,
I want you to know I drank because I had to
feel alive or... but you know